Venting Wish I could get N right now

[powerofdap]

I can't afford N currently but will be in 7 weeks. Working at a new job where I'm constantly asking questions because I don't know what I'm meant to be doing and how to even do the things they're asking. 7 more goddamn weeks of being useless all the while being depressed.

I don't even want to work, I want to ctb right now. But I can't risk botching partial, SN or any other method. I can't imagine the pain, I don't want anymore pain, i've had enough of pain. I need N.

 

[Hope:-)]

Me toooooo. I would probably have drunk it by now. I will probably do sn as apparently it's uncomfortable but not painful. God I hope that's true.i can afford N. I just don't know if it will ever turn up as so many packages are getting seized, law enforcement's getting involved etc. In an ideal world I would have N. Very sad about it.

 

[Lone Wanderer]

I can't afford N currently but will be in 7 weeks. Working at a new job where I'm constantly asking questions because I don't know what I'm meant to be doing and how to even do the things they're asking. 7 more goddamn weeks of being useless all the while being depressed.

I don't even want to work, I want to ctb right now. But I can't risk botching partial, SN or any other method. I can't imagine the pain, I don't want anymore pain, i've had enough of pain. I need N.

Hope you get thru those long 7 weeks. I wish you the best my friend.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah N would be nice. It's my first choice, but I don't feel secure even trying to order it right now. I'll fall back on my back-up plan when the time comes for me, if the N situation isn't resolved by then. And I'm OK with that. All any of us can do, is just do the best we can do, for as long as we're able. I know it sounds like a platitude, like a shitty platitude, but it's true. I wish you the best as you do just that.

 

[powerofdap]

Hope you get thru those long 7 weeks. I wish you the best my friend.

Thanks dude

Yeah N would be nice. It's my first choice, but I don't feel secure even trying to order it right now. I'll fall back on my back-up plan when the time comes for me, if the N situation isn't resolved by then. And I'm OK with that. All any of us can do, is just do the best we can do, for as long as we're able. I know it sounds like a platitude, like a shitty platitude, but it's true. I wish you the best as you do just that.

Word, the longest part is just waiting. Life is just a long idle.

 

[ojinzo]

Yeah N would be nice. It's my first choice, but I don't feel secure even trying to order it right now. I'll fall back on my back-up plan when the time comes for me, if the N situation isn't resolved by then. And I'm OK with that. All any of us can do, is just do the best we can do, for as long as we're able. I know it sounds like a platitude, like a shitty platitude, but it's true. I wish you the best as you do just that.

What's your backup plan?

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. Life certainly is very tiring and there seems to be no escape from pain. We should all be able to get N, and it's cruel and selfish to deny people that option. No one should ever have to resort to a risky suicide method, and none of us should have to wait for N as that is just prolonging suffering. Nobody should ever have to research suicide on the internet and the peaceful methods should be easily available. I just think that it's so wrong how people want to stop others from ctb and prevent suicide, those people must be delusional as the reality is that life is just constant pain and misery and non existence is always preferable to living.

 

[The Abyss]

Yeah I do too but it was intercepted, bastards.

 

[Hope:-)]

I feel like most packages of n are getting intercepted
I feel like most packages of n are getting intercepted