Will you pick a date to ctb or wait for a day you feel ready?

[plsimnotokay]

Some days I feel like having a date might feel like a lot of pressure to me. And some days I feel like it's a good way to prepare yourself. Right now I'm leaning towards doing it when I'm alone and feeling ready. Either way, I can't really choose a date cause I'm under supervision.

 

[outrider567]

No set date for me, it will just happen when I just can't take it anymore---came closer last night, when I found under her bed the tote bags she used on our dozens of trips together, and one of her collapsible walkers--didn't get much sleep last night

 

[LoveYoux]

Yeah I think just when it feels right, no pressure x

 

[OuttaTIme]

Also under supervision. So have to wait until i''m free.

 

[soon06132022]

I guess it depends on the method. As for my plan, I was thinking as soon as I get the materials collected to CTB the way that I want to. However, someone that I wanted to say goodbye to has pushed back when she can meet me until Tuesday of next week. I struggle with deciding if I should just send her a note as I originally intended or if I should wait to meet with her in person.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that personally, if I had a peaceful and reliable way to exit, I would just leave when I feel ready, it would be a feeling that I have that I know it is time to go. I just wish that it is easier to leave and I feel trapped in this world because of limited access to methods. Living is very painful and everyday it hurts me being alive. I envy those who are gone.

 

[BasqueClown]

I don't want to set a date, but certainly when I believe that no action can resolve my mental struggle I'll quit this world and go to the forest.
I don't plan to leave suicide note but perhaps will be important to comfort my family
I have two ages: 26 (next year) or 41 to my time limit
If in one year I didn't improve or become homeless I kill myself
If I can improve and feel stable I'll do some books and then in 41 I kill myself
I know that is a stereotype of writers killing themselves but fu&$& it at any moment I'll lose my mind and don't want to be a charge to anyone

 

[Ness]

I do a little of both. I set tentative dates and if it works out, it works out, but if it doesn't then I'll wait and set another tentative due date.

 

[Hercules]

I wouldn't set a date in advance. There would be too much pressure, and I would get more and more anxious as the date approached. I would wait until I was ready and certain that it is what I want to do. I think I will only be able to go through with it if was somewhat impulsive like if I woke up one day
and I really can't take it anymore.

 

[September5th]

August 27th or September 5th. It needs to be one of these two. Hard to pick.
I'm so damn tired. I'm not just sad anymore. I'm literally tired as fuck from this hell and everything about it. Unless time travel is discover in the next few months, that's it for me. Can't get what I want back, so fuck it.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

I'd be gone if my supplier had product. The date doesn't matter.

 

[london3]

@plsimnotokay

For me choosing a date is to put too much pressure on myself. I feel that when the time comes i will know in my own mind that it is finally my time to ctb.

I would put more emphasis on my state of mind at the time and whether i feel my options have come to an end and i will now go ahead and ctb.

 

[clown]

When I feel ready. I don't think it's worth it to put up a date and prepare much cuz you might fail and that will feel extra devastating if you put up a date and hyped it up.

 

[TheDoomedDoomer]

Probably just wait until I'm ready. I told myself I won't make it to 22 so I'll do it in the next few months. Preferably in the fall around October.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Summer Solstice sounds pretty good to me but we'll see.

 

[Medicmedic72]

As soon as I get back from my trip to see a friend.

 

[DreamingOfAutumn]

I don't have an exact date, although I'd say there is probably a 95% or greater chance of me not seeing 2023, and I say that having been varying degrees of suicidal for half my life now.

 

[jamie_]

idk hopefully soon. im notoriously a coward and don't have the strength to do it but finally got the last nail in the coffin today that might just squash any last doubt

 

[plsimnotokay]

Yeah I think just when it feels right, no pressure x

Yes! I absolutely hate the feeling of pressure x

Also under supervision. So have to wait until i''m free.

It's terrible being supervised. I have no freedom.

As soon as I get back from my trip to see a friend.

I hope you have a lovely and safe trip!

August 27th or September 5th. It needs to be one of these two. Hard to pick.
I'm so damn tired. I'm not just sad anymore. I'm literally tired as fuck from this hell and everything about it. Unless time travel is discover in the next few months, that's it for me. Can't get what I want back, so fuck it.

I feel you. I am so exhausted too. Option to time travel would be nice. I'd go back to the few good moments of my life and relive them one last time before I leave this world for good.

 

[Medicmedic72]

I hope you have a lovely and safe trip!

It's been a great trip. I am staying with someone that has it quite a bit worse than me. However, he is southern baptist preacher, so there's no wearing or drinking in this house.

 

[plsimnotokay]

I think that personally, if I had a peaceful and reliable way to exit, I would just leave when I feel ready, it would be a feeling that I have that I know it is time to go. I just wish that it is easier to leave and I feel trapped in this world because of limited access to methods. Living is very painful and everyday it hurts me being alive. I envy those who are gone.

I wish it was easier too. This life has been so painful we deserve a painless way to leave.

It's been a great trip. I am staying with someone that has it quite a bit worse than me. However, he is southern baptist preacher, so there's no wearing or drinking in this house.

Oh I am so glad to hear! Although you can't drink or swear in the house, is everything else fine? The bed and the house? What have you done so far and can I ask where you're visiting?

 

[Medicmedic72]

I wish it was easier too. This life has been so painful we deserve a painless way to leave.

Oh I am so glad to hear! Although you can't drink or swear in the house, is everything else fine? The bed and the house? What have you done so far and can I ask where you're visiting?

I'm in tornado alley actually. I have been out to see the wild longhorns and buffalo, and the prairie dogs. We went to a welcome center at the preserve and watched a movie. I saw a couple of famous graves; I visited my friend's wife's grave, but which was very important to him for me to see. I never met his wife.

 

[dogofman]

i'll do it when i'm at my most vulnerable. never been able to commit to a date my whole life

 

[andweallfloatonok]

april 5th while it's raining. for layne staley and kurt cobain.

 

[outatime_85]

No set time.
I just want to make sure I have the pieces to do what I need to do when I am ready to.

 

[Zzzzz]

My Si is too strong to pick a set date. I must wait until I feel ready.

 

[plsimnotokay]

I'm in tornado alley actually. I have been out to see the wild longhorns and buffalo, and the prairie dogs. We went to a welcome center at the preserve and watched a movie. I saw a couple of famous graves; I visited my friend's wife's grave, but which was very important to him for me to see. I never met his wife.

I would love to see longhorns and buffalos in person. Are they as huge as they look in photos? It's very kind of you to visit the grave with your friend. You are so respectful and understanding. Im sure he appreciates it very much.