Will you be missed?

[shironeko]

No.

Fortunately many people won't miss me. They would be happy to see me kms and gossiping around someone I once known.

Some in my family may miss my past self who already dead. So I couldn't care less.

I would only care about people who known my true self and understands my pain, who acknowledges me as a whole even though I cannot accept myself.

I would feel terrible because they really cared about me. I do not want to hurt them. Such nice persons are not deserving to feel the pain I caused.

So I don't want them to know. I don't want anyone to *miss* my true self.

But, sometimes, I would still want to be remembered. So contradictory.. why???

 

[westerly_merlin]

I think my siblings will make a song and dance about me leaving but just so they can show the rest of the world they care. (they don't care about me, just what others think about them)


My son will, but I think he will inherit the money to be able to follow his dreams and see me CTB as an enabler for him.

 

[oatmeal.n]

My partner of 2 years might, but it doesn't particularly bother me. Family, friends, and distant relatives may as well.

 

[thebox_123]

I will be missed by at least two people, my children. It's sort of hefty to talk about. I feel like such a failure. But I know they'll be alright.

 

[woofwag]

Unfortunately, yes, I will be greatly missed. It will traumatize every person in my life who knew me. Maybe it's a horrible thing to think, but I find some solace in knowing they will die eventually too. As my favorite musician Will Wood said in his song Memento Mori: the most important thing in the world, "In the fabric of time and in the vastness of space / A billion amounts to nothing in infinity's face / At most a couple generations will remember the ways in which / Your life never mattered / So, who cares if it's a waste?" We're all tiny, stupid specks of nothing who will be gone so soon it will be less than a wink in time. I'll have what fun I can until I choose to CTB, but when it really all catches up to me, all the trauma and debt and legislation sure to destroy my life, I'll try my best to not feel too guilty about it when I do.

 

[heyilikeicecream]

Do you want to be missed? Are you leaving anyone behind? How do you feel about it?

I'm pretty sure the only two people who'll miss me is my two best friends. One of them already knows about my wish to CTB and supports, so she won't be shocked at least. My other best friend is the one who'll inherit me and while we've sort of drifted apart during the years I think it will be the hardest on her. Which I hate and feel terrible about. I'm pretty sure it will reach my other friends - both online and offline through them. They'd probably find it sad, but wouldn't grieve. Probably would reach my parents too, though I'm not sure exactly how. My mother would probably use it to manipulate people to give her money. My father I'm not sure how he would react. My sister wouldn't give a shit. Well, if I go this month she'd probably whine about it ruining her birthday. There's one person whom I'm terrified will find out, but no one I know has any ties with her, apart from being familiar woth who she is. I'm terrified of her blaming herself. I may ask my bestie to specifically not tell her.

I just want to be forgotten about. I don't want anyone to miss me, nor grieve me. I want to be thrown away to rot asap and I want people to move on with their lives as if nothing happened.

i am the second youngest daughter of my family and i'm supposed to become an aunt this year in december but by that time, i won't be here. yes i will be missed and i know that but i'm so tired. my first suicide attempt was at age 14 after an SA incident and one more thing, but from that age to me turning 19 a few weeks ago, i was always destined to suicide. it might sound a bit strange, but not to me. i have had multiple suicide attempts since age 14, one almost left me paralyzed if i had landed in the wrong position, but i didn't luckily.

my nephew will never know what my voice sounds like or face, other than videos/photos. he will never get to know me personally, other than stories. my mother once confessed that if i were to commit suicide and actually succeed, she would understand why i did it. but then again, she's an undiagnosed bipolar mother and she has said a lot of things.

for example; "do you want me to buy you a gun so you can go and shoot yourself" when i think i was 15-16

anywayyy yeah i will be missed, and i will leave important people behind but i do not care anymore. i have suffered enough.

 

[EmptyBottle]

my nephew will never know what my voice sounds like or face, other than videos/photos.

If u wish, u may be able to record voicemail too.

PS: nice nickname

 

[ava_sparkle]

My mom would make a fuss just for the attention.

Based on past events, no. She doesn't miss my brother after he CTB, and he was the normal one. Her husband could not have cared less about his death, let alone mine.

 

[heyilikeicecream]

If u wish, u may be able to record voicemail too.

PS: nice nickname

oo good idea actually, but we also have home videos when me and my sister were younger, and you can hear my voice haha but i will def do that as well

If u wish, u may be able to record voicemail too.

PS: nice nickname

also ty, i do like ice cream

 

[Fadenself00]

Probably not for very long
(I'm already pretty much invisible anyway)