feggut
Member
- Sep 19, 2021
- 57
I intended to make it happen last week, but didn't follow through due to overuse of alcohol resulting diminished motivation and general apathy/lethargy. Now though has to be different. The spotlight beam soon approaches. There is to be no more running and hiding, no more lies available to cover up my true intent. There is no postponing the inevitable any longer. I've drifted all I could on this borrowed time.
Preparations have been made; letters are prepared, ideal ending location has been scoped out, A,B&C methods are as sound as they ever could be. All that needs to happen is for to override basic survival instinct and do what needs to be done. I've lived a fair enough life with the cards I've been dealt. And am at peace with my decision.
Dunno why I'm even posting this here, not like it matters or anyone has any reason to care. Suppose it helps to confess for my sake, or to feel like I've spoken and been heard for the final time.
Preparations have been made; letters are prepared, ideal ending location has been scoped out, A,B&C methods are as sound as they ever could be. All that needs to happen is for to override basic survival instinct and do what needs to be done. I've lived a fair enough life with the cards I've been dealt. And am at peace with my decision.
Dunno why I'm even posting this here, not like it matters or anyone has any reason to care. Suppose it helps to confess for my sake, or to feel like I've spoken and been heard for the final time.
