Why'd we all join? (is anyone else seeing a bunch of new users?)

[Die2night]

I heard about this site from THAT YouTuber and my mental health been declining. Figured it wouldn't hurt to talk to strangers about how I feel, knowing 2026 is probably gonna be my last year.

From what I've seen, the image that he built of this website is not even close to what it actually is. I haven't seen anyone tell one another to CTB in a post that wasn't talking about CTBing. It feels pretty welcoming, we're all struggling with the same things, why shouldn't we help each other?

 

[MrsT-800]

I've wanted to die since well over half my life now and I'm just tired. Dealing with assault, abuse, family trauma, mental and eating disorders and illness… I'm tired. My marriage is rocky and it's inching me closer. I guess I'm just over what life has dealt me. But someone has to be fate's punching bag, so I live.

 

[BoulderSoWhat]

I may have stumbled on this site years ago, but can't remember for sure. Spring 2024 is when I clearly remember looking through some threads related to methods. Attempted for a couple days after planning during mid 2024. Managed to still be alive after my attempts, but the last attempt I knew my body was in trouble if I didn't call 911. Told the what happened, willingly accepted going inpatient for help. Got out of the hospital about 2 weeks later, so now it was about mid June 2024. I remembered this site and became a member. I guess I was somewhat active going into late 2024. But then shit started and I almost financially collapsed to the point of being homeless a second time in my life, so I just went offline for a good while to focus on myself. Still feeling unsettled because I'm moving again in a couple months and the details aren't completely squared away yet, but just trying to take things day by day until it gets fully figured out.

I'm disconnected from all friends and family I had prior to my attempt, so this is the only place I can connect with people who understand what going through this stuff is like.

 

[Riven]

like others in this thread, I found this site from that video (which like, he did an absolutely terrible job at censoring if he was actually not wanting people to find it). ive been struggling mentally for years now and its nice to have a place that I can talk about/ see others discussing stuff without any kind of taboo or toxic positivity. im also glad to now know of multiple good methods for ctb if i decide thats what is right for me. thats what i love about this place, it gives us all the CHOICE to do what is best for us.

 

[Unknown21]

I made an account probably within days of finding the site.

Same.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

well, i found the site over a year ago (aug.
2024) through that one tantacrul video (everyone here knows which). and of course since he did a crap job at censoring, i went looking, found it, and lurked for some time before eventually signing up (once everything in my life completely fell apart in october).

mind you, i was a minor (17) when i first discovered SaSu, the very people tantacrul was trying to protect. ironic how his video only attracted more young folks to this place....not very smart of him, hm?

but anyway, i saw this site as the perfect place to dump all my thoughts/feelings without any judgement or toxic positivity bs. plus i wanted to learn how more about certain methods, that way i can find peace once and for all when it's time for me to ctb. and i feel really glad interacting with y'all folks here....because i know i wouldn't have felt home at any other place otherwise

 

[LostAllHope666]

I wasn't able to join until recently due to the youtuber/news drama but that is how I found out about this website, the video just popped up on my recommended. That was over a year or so ago I think, I have no sense of time though. I lurked back then and recently I had something happen that just made me feel I need a place to talk without judgements or shame.

I found the regular suicide discussion subreddit wasn't the right fit for me. Whenever I spoke of something vulnerable it would just get ignored or worse, people would argue with me or say not very nice things. It made me spiral and regret ever speaking.

I couldn't find anyone to talk to, and anyone I knew personally or online couldn't handle this discussion or take my words seriously. Even now I'm very alone.

This place was framed like one of those dark web sinister places like the red rooms or whatever but honestly it just seems to be a place where people get it and don't make you feel bad for wanting to die.

 

[like_a_bird]

Severely disillusioned with the mental healthcare system. Welcome a forum for discussion free from the risk of further traumatization.

 

[bunn]

well i was looking for a site like this for a long time so when i found it i had to join.
i have no one to talk about anything irl or online so i have here now

 

[animetal]

honestly i made an account as soon as i was able to about two years ago i believe. This site was here for me at my lowest point and i did make a really great friend from here. Its nice to be able to express myself without feeling like a burden and having others to share these feelings with makes me feel less alone

 

[wh0arewe123]

I can't remember how I discovered it. Maybe I was browsing the internet and discovered a post on this website. I only saw Tantacrul's video after I discovered SaSu. First I lurked here because I was tired of people virtue signaling on mainstream media. I decided to create an account for CTB methods and how to write a note.

 

[Defenestration]

J'ai vu « cette vidéo » il y a quelques semaines, d'un YouTubeur « populaire », donc le forum me trotte dans la tête depuis deux semaines déjà, au moment où je m'y suis inscrit.

Je n'y suis même pas allée parce que j'avais peur et que je croyais à la propagande selon laquelle ce site est comme si un fantôme me donnait un pistolet pour me tirer une balle dans la tête dès que je consulte un seul message ici.

Quelques semaines ont passé et mon état mental n'a cessé de se dégrader, alors j'ai décidé (étant une personne relativement ouverte d'esprit) : « Tant pis, je n'ai plus rien à perdre, de toute façon, j'en ai fini avec la vie. »

Eh bien… je suis tellement content d'avoir pris cette décision, et c'est un euphémisme !

Tout d'abord, j'ai réalisé que non seulement avoir un forum pro-choix n'équivaut pas à être pro-suicide (quelle surprise !), mais que cet endroit regorge de personnes partageant les mêmes idées et qui essaient VRAIMENT de s'ENTRAIDER les unes les autres TOUT EN COMBATTANT LUTTE CONTRE LEURS PROPRES DÉMONS (des surhommes, je vous dis !).

Franchement, ici, tout le monde est super et se soutient mutuellement. On est peut-être tous un peu distants, mais c'est comme une grande famille. Alors oui… rejoindre ce groupe m'a vraiment aidée, car j'ai réalisé que je ne suis pas seule, que je ne suis pas une extraterrestre, mais qu'il y a plein d'autres personnes qui galèrent comme moi, en coulisses.

Welcome

 

[Gangrel]

i''ve been here for some time

 

[kouna]

I've known the site for 3 years but only registered today.
3 years ago I thought about CTBing, I even bought SN (very easy to buy in my country) but never used it as during a panic attack I jumped. Strangely, my life got better despite my injuries but now that my life is totally messed up I'm back here gathering info for CTBing

 

[snowsilence]

Sometimes the holidays are the worst. I used to be on this site but I left thinking i was better but yk stuff always gets worse

 

[RadioRamen]

I stumbled upon this site never hearing about it when I began active research in how to CTB. I just looked at the resources but eventually created my account . I'm just an old man who's tired of feeling like a failure and no longer find comfort in his home and no support. Because of my kid I can never CTB by my own hand but how often I wish for something to take me out grows
stronger.

 

[Lost.Empyrean]

felt like in every other space I was forced to perform for others and pretend to not only hold opinions that weren't my own but also act like a drastically different person than who I actually am. got really fucking sick of it.

 

[Tarantula]

ED Forums basically lead me here. I heard about trauma survivor forums from people on eating disorder forums, and I wondered if there were any forums for suicidal people so I searched for one and found this one. I needed a place where I can openly talk about my suicidal ideation and figure out a way to do it right

 

[twistedtransistor47]

About six years ago someone on the eating disorder side of twitter posted about this website and sent me the link when I asked for it. I scrolled through once or twice and forgot about it.

Last year at a really low moment of my life I remembered this website, got on and decided to join.