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nayomi

nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
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i do get that suicidal people are very pain averse and want to end it so ending it with more pain kinda makes no sense so you care about how peacefull it is.
i never been in real dying situation but I did have psychedelic ego death which feels like dying in extreme pain irl and you are sure it is happening.
it is painfull but after you dead there isnt a thing to remember this pain or suffer from it.
it all do not matter after you dead. pain is matters if you can remember it in the future or if you will suffer from it in the future more correctly. my ego death experiences do not making me suffer in the future and i will do them again and they are amazing.
also in extreme distress you have so much adrenaline that you barely feel any pain at all

the most important thing is the percentage of lethality if you really want it
 
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never mind me

Experienced
Nov 7, 2022
294
I don't agree. Pain also matters in the moment you are experiencing it. I remember being in a lot of pain after breaking my foot while climbing and although I don't consider the memory of the aftermath of my climbing accident as a particularly bad one as everything fully healed eventually the pain certainly didn't feel good while it lasted. And I think it is a lot harder to commit, if you have to use a method that will cause you to be in a lot of pain. It is hard enough to commit suicide as it is, as humans are naturally wired in a way to be scared of death and avoid it at all costs. So it takes a lot of courage to overcome the fear of death. But if you additionally have to worry about being in a lot of pain while dying it is so much harder to commit.
 
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telekon

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But I'm not in extreme distress. I'm weighing the odds of extreme distress in the hypothetical future if I keep living. If you're in extreme distress, you need to deal with that before committing.

It's a good question. I don't know why I'm afraid of the pain. I guess cause pain to the point of death might be worse than any other pain I've experienced thus far, and if I have the choice, I'd choose to do as much research possible to try and minimize it. Not everyone has the time or luxury.
 
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idfwlnh

Mousse - the final "peace" in life
Apr 10, 2026
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tbh, the most painful thing probably not the physical pain when you die, but your own actions and the pain which have accumulated until that point when u decide to ctb. imo it is hard to actually get the ball rolling, not the things afterwards.
 
eggsausagerice

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I don't agree. Pain also matters in the moment you are experiencing it. I remember being in a lot of pain after braking my foot while climbing and although I don't consider the memory of the aftermath of my climbing accident as a particularly bad one as everything fully healed eventually the pain certainly didn't feel good while it lasted. And I think it is a lot harder to commit, if you have to use a method that will cause you to be in a lot of pain. It is hard enough to commit suicide as it is, as humans are naturally wired in a way to be scared of death and avoid it at all costs. So it takes a lot of courage to overcome the fear of death. But if you additionally have to worry about being in a lot of pain while dying it is so much harder to commit.

i can be in a lot of mental anguish, then forget how it felt when i feel better, then feel it all over again be afraid of the way the pain feels because i can't control how much it hurts. the same thing probably goes for physical pain. i've been thinking these last few days that i am afraid of dying, but i'm more scared imagining what the pain would be like. with sn, it can only be described. but it sounds less psychologically stressful than hanging. physical pain comes before death, so i think i care more about pain. i think it's totally natural to be afraid of pain, because you could survive after experiencing it to still remember how it felt.
 
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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favorite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
366
I once fell on rough cement and couldn't walk for half a day and can't bathe for a week, one of the worst pain i ever felt. Although since then i've gone through lots of physical and psychological pain. If falling on rough cement is that bad i couldn't imagine dying being stabbed. Also imagine immolation. Yes in one way your suffering ends but are you willing to endure these before you can get your peace?
 
nayomi

nayomi

only the truth will save us all
Jul 19, 2026
67
I don't agree. Pain also matters in the moment you are experiencing it. I remember being in a lot of pain after breaking my foot while climbing and although I don't consider the memory of the aftermath of my climbing accident as a particularly bad one as everything fully healed eventually the pain certainly didn't feel good while it lasted. And I think it is a lot harder to commit, if you have to use a method that will cause you to be in a lot of pain. It is hard enough to commit suicide as it is, as humans are naturally wired in a way to be scared of death and avoid it at all costs. So it takes a lot of courage to overcome the fear of death. But if you additionally have to worry about being in a lot of pain while dying it is so much harder to commit.
yea but it is not the most important

also at some amount of pain you dont feel anything


But I'm not in extreme distress. I'm weighing the odds of extreme distress in the hypothetical future if I keep living. If you're in extreme distress, you need to deal with that before committing.

It's a good question. I don't know why I'm afraid of the pain. I guess cause pain to the point of death might be worse than any other pain I've experienced thus far, and if I have the choice, I'd choose to do as much research possible to try and minimize it. Not everyone has the time or luxury.
true
tbh, the most painful thing probably not the physical pain when you die, but your own actions and the pain which have accumulated until that point when u decide to ctb. imo it is hard to actually get the ball rolling, not the things afterwards.
yea, phisical pain is nothing compers to mental
i can be in a lot of mental anguish, then forget how it felt when i feel better, then feel it all over again be afraid of the way the pain feels because i can't control how much it hurts. the same thing probably goes for physical pain. i've been thinking these last few days that i am afraid of dying, but i'm more scared imagining what the pain would be like. with sn, it can only be described. but it sounds less psychologically stressful than hanging. physical pain comes before death, so i think i care more about pain. i think it's totally natural to be afraid of pain, because you could survive after experiencing it to still remember how it felt.
i think that suicidal people are extremely pain averse

i think at some lvl of pain you cant feel more
I once fell on rough cement and couldn't walk for half a day and can't bathe for a week, one of the worst pain i ever felt. Although since then i've gone through lots of physical and psychological pain. If falling on rough cement is that bad i couldn't imagine dying being stabbed. Also imagine immolation. Yes in one way your suffering ends but are you willing to endure these before you can get your peace?
i feel like at least you have a reason to endure pain you can endure any pain
 

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