Venting Why is it so hard to talk

[Cat12345]

All I want to do is explain to my parter how I'm feeling but I can't it's so hard. I'm so glad i found this website it's the only comfort I got that I'm not the only one that's feels this way. I don't want to be hear anymore but I can't go yet need to sort things out first.
Does anybody feel the same or have there own reason why they haven't done it yet.

 

[Angi]

You are not alone in this, indeed, and I am glad it brings you comfort.

Do you know what is holding you back? Fear of rejection would be my problem, I guess. For a better chance, you could read up on nonviolent communication as well as feed your partner your point in small bits. Both tend to make things more digestable for others.

I am sure we all have our reasons to still be here. Taking care of loved ones, fear of failing, sorting out matters and the logistics of carrying out a decent attempt are the reasons I read most, but there are probably many more. Then, there is the group who's misery has not pushed them to the point to actually do it. I check three of these boxes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am personally only still alive as ctb is so difficult for me, if it was easier to leave I would already be gone. I do know that for many people it can be hard to share how you feel, as often others do not understand as they are not in a similar situation.

We live in a world where suicide is so stigmatised and our right to die is not respected so it is understandable why so many people keep thoughts of suicide to themselves. I personally would see no point to sharing how I feel, it could never achieve anything but of course everyone is different.
I'm sorry that you suffer so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Graham]

All I want to do is explain to my parter how I'm feeling but I can't it's so hard. I'm so glad i found this website it's the only comfort I got that I'm not the only one that's feels this way. I don't want to be hear anymore but I can't go yet need to sort things out first.
Does anybody feel the same or have there own reason why they haven't done it yet.

May be write it down instead?

Can get all your feelings / ideas / worries out

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Idk. I tried to bring up my desire to CTB to my mother, but she doesn't really want to get into it. Understandably so, as there's nothing that can be done to sway my mind.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

Talking is difficult for many of us. The fear of being rejected, the fear of being shamed, and in some cases, a fear of being committed into a hospital. Those fears keep us silent out there.

Then we have our SI that keeps us from actually leaving this life.

 

[Pluto]

Most people who actually try and have these conversations end up worse off for it. The typical responses range from dismissive to hostile.