I don't know if it's just coincidence, or I actually have bad luck, but this pattern keeps repeating everywhere in my life. Every positive things, can be barely called positive. For example I'm tall, which is good thing of I want to find a partner, but no woman wants me anyway, becuse I'm asperger, so all I have out of it is posture issues and back pain. All my relationships just have something about them that makes them not work.
Recently I found relief in long meditations, but I got headaches so bad, it's impossible. I can't name every single instance of it and can't always put it into words, but I'm not making this up, it just feels like reality is hostile towards me. Even suicide can't simply be easy, I can't eveb check out.
Is this what life is supposed to be? I Everytime I try reality just pulls out another absolute bullshit that makes it impossible. There is just no end to the bullshit.
Recently I found relief in long meditations, but I got headaches so bad, it's impossible. I can't name every single instance of it and can't always put it into words, but I'm not making this up, it just feels like reality is hostile towards me. Even suicide can't simply be easy, I can't eveb check out.
Is this what life is supposed to be? I Everytime I try reality just pulls out another absolute bullshit that makes it impossible. There is just no end to the bullshit.
