Why does it have to be so difficult?

[Rustysoupcan]

Why does killing yourself have to be so hard? I think about it every day yet I still have no solid plan. All I want is to die with my loved ones around me, either at home or in a hospital. The only way to do that is to get cancer or something. I've tried to off myself twice and obviously failed. I dont know why it has to be so hard. I just want to go peacefully, but I cant. How I wish assisted suicide was an option.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I hear ya…… Maybe the time isn't right yet? Idk really. I'm right where you are…..

 

[Chiisai]

Why does killing yourself have to be so hard? I think about it every day yet I still have no solid plan. All I want is to die with my loved ones around me, either at home or in a hospital. The only way to do that is to get cancer or something. I've tried to off myself twice and obviously failed. I dont know why it has to be so hard. I just want to go peacefully, but I cant. How I wish assisted suicide was an option.

I so wish that I could just snap my fingers and disappear. Haha

 

[siray]

Who among us wouldn't want death at their command, when it's bedtime in my deepest sorrows I think to myself I would be at peace if I didn't wake up in morning, if death took me unawares at midnight, I wouldn't even mind hours of agony as long as death is guaranteed.

As for dying by my own hands, how extremely horrified I am at the mere thought of what I would have to do to my body to achieve death, I'm at a loss for words. This flesh is a prison, and only under delusions is it bearable to live and suffer.

 

[Chiisai]

Who among us wouldn't want death at their command, when it's bedtime in my deepest sorrows I think to myself I would be at peace if I didn't wake up in morning, if death took me unawares at midnight, I wouldn't even mind hours of agony as long as death is guaranteed.

As for dying by my own hands, how extremely horrified I am at the mere thought of what I would have to do to my body to achieve death, I'm at a loss for words. This flesh is a prison, and only under delusions is it bearable to live and suffer.

Wow. What a beautiful way to describe it and I feel the same. Thank you.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I understand it is difficult as we are programmed to survive. Also society takes away peaceful methods and denies us a right to die. We all deserve an option of a peaceful exit from this life, it isn't as if any of us asked to be here in the first place. It is cruel how society expects us to suffer for decades. I wish it was easier to let go of life. The thing that I want the most is to fall into an eternal sleep.