I really thought about it, i mean i've planned out my suicide too.
i can do it no prob, as for the SI, i've conditioned myself to compare the OD to a loving embrace by a big sister.
It's just that when all is said and done, i still want somebody to remember me, even if once after i die.
Lovingly.
I don't think i've ever experienced that.
I also want to settle a few stuff before dying and I can die before 20 no prob.
Does this mean im still clinging on to life? I don't think so.
If i had my methadone now, i would consume it without any thought.
i can do it no prob, as for the SI, i've conditioned myself to compare the OD to a loving embrace by a big sister.
It's just that when all is said and done, i still want somebody to remember me, even if once after i die.
Lovingly.
I don't think i've ever experienced that.
I also want to settle a few stuff before dying and I can die before 20 no prob.
Does this mean im still clinging on to life? I don't think so.
If i had my methadone now, i would consume it without any thought.
