Why can’t I leave?

[sadpinky]

I've been ready and waiting for way too long.
the thought of putting others through the same pain I'm feeling due to the loss of my partner last year keeps gripping me and it won't let me leave.
I don't know what to do

 

[leuzenstraat]

It's only normal and human to feel that way. But what could I tell you, besides some words of compassion?

 

[absolute]

Sadpinky I am sorry for what you are going through, it must be really really hard. If you do not know what to do then please think it through a little while longer.

 

[toforigivelife]

That is what holds me back too. The effect that it would have on others.

It would be so ideal if those who would be affected could just listen with an open mind, say what they want to say, ask what they want to ask and accept and make peace with our decision.

If you truly feel that this is the right decision for you I hope that you can find a way to handle this aspect of choosing to leave. None of us want to hurt those that we love.

Again, as much as you can, the survival instinct is a part of human nature and something people like us wrestle with, try to make sure that this is the right decision for you. (I'm sure you've been over it many times in your mind.)

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I know it's going to sound like some kind of platitude, but it's said that you shouldn't live your life for anyone else. Why, then, should your death be linked to anyone else?

 

[outrider567]

I've been ready and waiting for way too long.
the thought of putting others through the same pain I'm feeling due to the loss of my partner last year keeps gripping me and it won't let me leave.
I don't know what to do
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I see your concern but losing a longtime partner is worse(for me)than losing both my parents, ten times worse---

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. Living really is so painful and I can imagine that it must be a difficult situation to be in. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from your suffering.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

Sorry OP. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself at all, at least until you feel ready to leave? Maybe work or hobbies or whatever? Just to reduce the pain..