Venting Why can't I eat?

[Someplace_nice]

Idk why, but for the past two days I've had trouble eating. I want to eat and so does my stomach, Everytime I think of what to eat I get nauseous so I don't eat, all day. It's easy eating dinner, I still have a hard time eating but I can get eat. Oatmeal and eggs are the only things that don't make me wanna barf, unfortunately he didn't have time thins morning so I didn't ask him to make me oatmeal, I love his oatmeal, I think I just gotta wash the grease and residue out from the pork chops from last night, than I can make and egg sandwich. That's a lot of work and I gotta take a shower at some point today too. I wish I could just eat like normal, I already don't fucking sleep and now I don't eat, at least I'll lose weight but, when I start to eat I'll gain it all back. Some days I'm just not strong enough to reject food when I don't need it and it puts me back in that binge spiral, which, then makes me feel bad so I eat more. I'm always tired so I hardly do chores and I feel guilty about it so I would eat more but this might be day 3 of not eating. Imma at least try to eat lunch later, I have vanilla wafers so I'll eat those for breakfast, at least it's something.

 

[ilovenoodles]

omg I completely understand you and the same happens to me, like I wanna eat but I get so nauseous the moment I try but then it stops and I end up binging and gaining all the weight back. hope you enjoy your vanilla wafers <3 don't go too long with minimal food/not eating at all