NSFW I want an ED (TW)

[LonelyPrince]

I know it sounds bad and it probably is, but I just want to stop compulsively eating. I eat to fill a void inside my chest. I obsessively think about eating and sometimes I binge and can't control myself. The more I try to restrict my diet and the more my brain screams at me to eat something.
I'm not fat, but I'm not skinny either. I wish I was skinny. I wish I could lose all my appetite and not eat for days. I just wanna stop eating but I can't.
I don't care if not eating makes me unhealthy: I'm already mentally unwell so why does it matter?
Ever since my depression started I just gained weight. I fucking hate this.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I know it sounds bad and it probably is, but I just want to stop compulsively eating. I eat to fill a void inside my chest. I obsessively think about eating and sometimes I binge and can't control myself. The more I try to restrict my diet and the more my brain screams at me to eat something.
I'm not fat, but I'm not skinny either. I wish I was skinny. I wish I could lose all my appetite and not eat for days. I just wanna stop eating but I can't.
I don't care if not eating makes me unhealthy: I'm already mentally unwell so why does it matter?
Ever since my depression started I just gained weight. I fucking hate this. I wish I was skin and bones at this point.

Idk, in my experience an ED just adds another layer of unwell and it's difficult to get rid of

 

[Tyra]

What is your reasoning for wanting to look super skinny?

Is it because you think it looks more attractive? Is it because you want people to notice you are struggling?

I think if you answered the question it could help you realize that becoming super skinny won't get you the goal you are thinking of.

 

[LonelyPrince]

What is your reasoning for wanting to look super skinny?

Is it because you think it looks more attractive? Is it because you want people to notice you are struggling?

I think if you answered the question it could help you realize that becoming super skinny won't get you the goal you are thinking of.

Dysphoria.

 

[MatiSendiri]

I know it sounds bad and it probably is, but I just want to stop compulsively eating. I eat to fill a void inside my chest. I obsessively think about eating and sometimes I binge and can't control myself. The more I try to restrict my diet and the more my brain screams at me to eat something.
I'm not fat, but I'm not skinny either. I wish I was skinny. I wish I could lose all my appetite and not eat for days. I just wanna stop eating but I can't.
I don't care if not eating makes me unhealthy: I'm already mentally unwell so why does it matter?
Ever since my depression started I just gained weight. I fucking hate this.

Relatable, I also wish to have anorexia or bulimia just to get skinny and get well in my life. Unfortunately, changing a mental disorder is not that easy after all...

 

[ctb_warrior]

What is ED?

Binge eating is a coping mechanism. Just like some people are addicted to alcohol, some are addicted to porn, some are addicted to drugs and so on.

If you want to solve it, do the havening technique regularly for a couple of days, it'll reset this pattern completely



I used to get hunger pang at 4pm everyday and I wanted to eat junk food. I no longer get that.

Wish you the best

 

[NickyKymJelly]

Binge eating disorder is a thing, but I get your point. Following tips online such as one meal a day or smaller meals throughout the day is difficult too (thanks to food noise like you mentioned). It's sad that society can make people think EDs are the best way to lose and maintain weight loss.

 

[Tyra]

Dysphoria.

Okay so you are aware then it's just your mind tricking you. So that's a positive thing.

 

[ceilingabove]

im sorry youre struggling with food. youre not gross or wrong or anything bad for wanting food, for eating, etc. i understand 'wanting' to starve, just like any other self harm. dont feel ashamed.

 

[tomame]

i have mia .. and itbrings about as much preoccupation as binge eating .. which is a classified ED buddy. we all have different terrible ways of coping i guess. but, i wonder what part of us determines which ED will have us cope best ..

 

[thelostautistic]

I'm sorry you're struggling with this. It does sound really difficult. But I promise you a restrictive eating disorder is not something you want to have. It's hell. I've dealt with a lot in my life and the eating disorder was by far the worst. It steals everything from you.

Relatable, I also wish to have anorexia or bulimia just to get skinny and get well in my life. Unfortunately, changing a mental disorder is not that easy after all...

Eating disorders will not make you well. They can permanently damage your physical health