Venting Why can't I die???

[Suicidebydeath]

Miserable.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Find a Plan B. Forget the N. I have. Plenty of perfectly good methods other than N.

 

[makethepainstop]

Ah my dear perhaps you have been too unsure of methodologies and technologies to
ensure you ctb without failure. I myself am planning every detail and planning for every possible contingency. I am making certain that my trip will be pleasant and certain.
Love and much warmth to you.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Find a Plan B. Forget the N. I have. Plenty of perfectly good methods other than N.

Ah my dear perhaps you have been too unsure of methodologies and technologies to
ensure you ctb without failure. I myself am planning every detail and planning for every possible contingency. I am making certain that my trip will be pleasant and certain.
Love and much warmth to you.

Yeah, I wanted to try SN but couldn't go through with it. Something putting me off, and I have a bad feeling I'd survive somehow in a horrible way, that the odds would not favour me, I feel unkillable. So because I couldn't kill myself with SN, I switched to N. I think I can ctb with that. It sucks that it's harder to get and keep.

 

[damaged_soul]

Ah my dear perhaps you have been too unsure of methodologies and technologies to
ensure you ctb without failure. I myself am planning every detail and planning for every possible contingency. I am making certain that my trip will be pleasant and certain.
Love and much warmth to you.

I have a detailed plan too but I'm still too scared. I'm scared that once I start experiencing the side effects, I'll freak out and end up going to the ER and getting "saved." Especially because the ER is walking distance to where I live.
I feel you, I am really miserable about how I can't die. The monkey-brain SI part of my brain is simply too strong. Also, I know it's very ironic, but I'm too depressed to die. I don't have the motivation to figure out where to source all the things I need, to test my SN, and to actually carry out my plan. I just want to lie in bed and do nothing all day.

 

[FuneralCry]

Dying is not easy after all. To be free from this world is all that I have wanted yet I'm still here. I wish that dying is as straightforward as just wishing to be gone, but after all we live in a world that makes leaving this life behind as difficult as possible. It's all very unfair, we have all already suffered enough in life without having to struggle in the process of planning our death. I wish you freedom.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Yeah, I wanted to try SN but couldn't go through with it. Something putting me off, and I have a bad feeling I'd survive somehow in a horrible way, that the odds would not favour me, I feel unkillable. So because I couldn't kill myself with SN, I switched to N. I think I can ctb with that. It sucks that it's harder to get and keep.

Yeah, but N has a lot of pitfalls, namely how hard it is to get AND it IS illegal. That's big one. I agree SN may do the job, but I'm not convinced it's as reliable as is often talked about, nor as peaceful as portrayed. Maybe it's time for a Pan C? There are plenty of other adequate methods out there. N2 is good from what I read. Way cheaper than N, and doesn't require you to buy anything illegal. Same goes for CO.

 

[CTB Dream]

Sorry cruelty life full suffer method not. Method theory available practice rolife remove. Chemic same n theory avail must easy chemist ,hope soon one make new