Who am I to get a painless death?

[death137]

Almost all the ppl who ctb were in pain and fear when they were doing the act. Some of them were minors as young as 6 years old. If they went through that then who am I to beg for an easy way out? Even if I beg its not like I will get it. There is nothing to be gain from crying only. I've to say "I wish I could easily die but this isn't possible so I need to accept the pain and terror that comes with hanging and also take inspiration from those that already left and finally end my suffering".

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Can I ask who you're referring to when you said almost all who ctb were in pain?

 

[Birdie]

Why would you rather be in pain if you can avoid it? It's irrational, so it's perfectly acceptable to wish a painless death.
You don't need to compare yourself to others.

 

[death137]

Can I ask who you're referring to when you said almost all who ctb were in pain?

Those who ctb in general

Why would you rather be in pain if you can avoid it? It's irrational, so it's perfectly acceptable to wish a painless death.
You don't need to compare yourself to others.

I wish I could die painlessly but its almost impossible. I need to accept this and take inspiration from those that died painful and end my existence.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Those who ctb in general

Ah OK, I've never heard of a six year old child ctb though.
There are methods which are reported to be fairly peaceful, have you had a look through the Method Resources Forum?

 

[death137]

Ah OK, I've never heard of a six year old child ctb though.
There are methods which are reported to be fairly peaceful, have you had a look through the Method Resources Forum?

6 year old suicide https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/ar...ent-youngest-people-committed-suicide-US.html

Where I live its very difficult to access peaceful methods like N or SN. My only realistic opinions seems to be hanging, cutting carotid artery and jumping.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

6 year old suicide https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/ar...ent-youngest-people-committed-suicide-US.html

Where I live its very difficult to access peaceful methods like N or SN. My only realistic opinions seems to be hanging, cutting carotid artery and jumping.

Goodness, that's terribly sad, but at 6 years old, I doubt she intended to end her life.

I'm so sorry you're in so much turmoil, I hope you are able to move forward, whatever direction you decide to take.

 

[WornOutLife]

I understand. CTB without pain seems almost impossible!

Hope you can feel better soon, bro. You know I really like you.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[Makko]

There are painless deaths but they come with fancy methods or improbable luck, and nothing to count on. Being able to accept the pain and terror is a sign that you are ready to pay the price for death and also collect your reward.

 

[death137]

I understand. CTB without pain seems almost impossible!

Hope you can feel better soon, bro. You know I really like you.

Hugs and love,

Matt

I love you brother