Discussion Where are you on the Emmengard Suicide Scale today?

[Zyntkalla]

4 and 9

 

[Cocoon]

I'm usually at a 5 or 6, but lately it's been at 8 and today it's been at 9.

 

[Deleted member 20852]

9 - I've written a note it's on my bedside table, I've downloaded the route to my destination and I've started to trying to get rid of some of my things. It's on my mind all day long. When people say to me at work ' see you next week' I wonder if they will.
When my dog dies I will go to a 10.

 

[BipolarGuy]

Well I guess I would be a 9.

 

[LittleJem]

Today am 8. The Samaritans just put the phone down on me (politely) and I've managed to sneeze on my coat which I recently had dry cleaned because I sneezed on it. My crazy fucking mother keeps trying to call me and I never want to speak to her again. I'm waking up every day telling my boyfriend I want to die. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to last another day of this. I'm going to try and last a few more months so I can split up with boyfriend and hope he won't blame himself.

 

[timeforketogo]

9. Putting affairs in order, which is quite painful to do by myself. Looking at CTB October 16 or 17.

 

[Deathwish1968]

9

 

[TheQ22]

9

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

5 today

 

[HelloHell]

9 all the time

 

[BridgeJumper]

Somewhere between 6 and 7 I guess
So not that bad for me
(Jesus, how broken do you have to be to think a 7 is not bad)

 

[SleeplessSoul]

Probably between 6 and 7? I was 8/9 a few months ago and managed to get down to a 2 for a bit.

 

[lostangel]

8

 

[WFJ74]

By that scale probably a 9.1. I've already written the notes, settled my accounts and have a CTB plan with a backup plan.

 

[blargh]

I feel the descriptions scale is so different to how I experience suicidality, suicide attempts, and life generally, that I can't use it.

Right now, probably at an 8 for proximity to carrying out something likely to result in death, but mood is a nice calm euphoria. Thoughts of suicide are not distressing me at all because I am confident that I have a solid plan and when they do bubble up they're of the "ooh yisss, gonna be escaping on dat bus soon" variety.

 

[Lilacmoon]

9 i guess

 

[tiredflower]

7

 

[BridgeJumper]

Have you ever gotten so suicidal you actually get calm? While on my way to the bridge with 200 pills once, I striked up a conversation with a nice old lady at the bus stop and I was genuinely smiling

I feel the descriptions scale is so different to how I experience suicidality, suicide attempts, and life generally, that I can't use it.

Right now, probably at an 8 for proximity to carrying out something likely to result in death, but mood is a nice calm euphoria. Thoughts of suicide are not distressing me at all because I am confident that I have a solid plan and when they do bubble up they're of the "ooh yisss, gonna be escaping on dat bus soon" variety.

 

[blargh]

It is a common enough thing that many MH professionals are aware that sudden improvements in demeanour can be a warning sign. I don't think that has trickled down to public awareness campaigns much though.

 

[Mr. Morningstar]

Lately 9

 

[Sherri]

10

 

[Eternity04]

9

 

[CatabolicSeed]

9

 

[So-lowgid]

6.4

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

9 just biding my time...

 

[Mr. Morningstar]

7

 

[dundyfundy]

8 or 9, I am spontaneous person there's nothing to prepare for me, possibly jot down the note but that would be minutes before in the process. So 8 to 10 can happen instantaneously for me, speaking of not even hours.

I don't think I visit this site when I am below 7, if I can't distract myself I get here and read both suicide and recovery sub-forums. It doesn't help, but I kind of get tired and more into the "just do it or stfu" mindset. Which solves nothing but makes it more bearable to sleep.

 

[muffin222]

8

 

[Tasdevil]

Lately 7

 

[Vannillahh]

5-6 today, I'm just listening to music, a little drained but I am not doing the worst.