When u are really ready.

[Final Escape]

I wanted to wait until I wasn't doing it over heartbreak or any irrational reason. Now that I'm past the heartbreak. I feel more at peace with my decision. I've been trying to get to this point.

 

[Greenberg]

I am happy that you have reached this moment of peace! Wish wishes to you.

 

[I want to end it]

Good luck. Another person who joined in 2018. Not many of those around.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

When you don't care about anything, the only thing you want is to be dead. That's when it's definitely your time. I want to ctb before things become worse as I'm seeing it's getting worse. Don't know how much I can handle this.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

When you don't care about anything, the only thing you want is to be dead. That's when it's definitely your time.

I think that's true. If there's still too much you care about, it can keep you from going through with it. I wish it were easier to abandon earthly cares.

 

[Pryras]

I'm glad you were able to overcome the heartbreak! That's great and I understand how you feel about making sure you're in the right headspace. It takes some time but I managed to do the same. A wave of calmness hit me afterwards since I didn't feel so impulsive.

 

[falloutcarter13]

I'm glad you were able to overcome the heartbreak! That's great and I understand how you feel about making sure you're in the right headspace. It takes some time but I managed to do the same. A wave of calmness hit me afterwards since I didn't feel so impulsive.

100% same here! This isn't the first time I've made the decision to ctb, but it *is* the first time I've felt at peace with it. I am under some circumstances that force me to rush (relatively, I suppose...maybe a month or more), but I don't feel like its an impulsive decision for the first time. It feels logical and reasonable, and it made the being-at-peace factor shoot through the roof. Best wishes!

 

[AtSea2020]

100% same here! This isn't the first time I've made the decision to ctb, but it *is* the first time I've felt at peace with it. I am under some circumstances that force me to rush (relatively, I suppose...maybe a month or more), but I don't feel like its an impulsive decision for the first time. It feels logical and reasonable, and it made the being-at-peace factor shoot through the roof. Best wishes!

What method will you be using?

 

[Ĺife is Sad]

Good luck. Another person who joined in 2018. Not many of those around.

Thanks for reminding me that it's been 2 years since I'm lurking this and not much changed

 

[grungeCat]

Currently I'm trying to stop taking antidepressants so I won't be stuck in this 'half-dead-half-alive' state. All they do is keeping me in vegetation. However even now I feel peace when thinking about ctb. It's good to hear you start to accept. Maybe when we're finally done we will be able to meet again and know better each other. I don't believe in afterlife but it feels kinda good to fantasize about that. Anywhere but not here. Not in this life. Not with all my handicaps and awkardness. Just not here.

 

[falloutcarter13]

What method will you be using?

SN. When I read about the stuff in the PPH, I knew right away that it was what I'd been looking for and by far the best option available to me.

 

[AtSea2020]

SN. When I read about the stuff in the PPH, I knew right away that it was what I'd been looking for and by far the best option available to me.

Have you managed to secure some?

 

[falloutcarter13]

Have you managed to secure some?

Its not in my hands yet, but yes, I ordered it yesterday and it has already shipped. The only thing I was waiting on was the money to pay for it and confirm a reliable source and reliable product. Once I had those things, I ordered with zero hesitation.

 

[Sensei]

Final Escape, it feels strange to read your words. I know you've been through some very difficult times, but you've always landed on your feet and kept on fighting. I also know that you and I share some problems and your desire to die does of course remind me of my own. Anyway. I don't know exactly what your life looks like, but I hope it will turn to the better so you don't have to resort to suicide. If you really have run out of options this time, I hope your journey will be peaceful.

 

[I want to end it]

Thanks for reminding me that it's been 2 years since I'm lurking this and not much changed

Its ok. Maybe you are not ready yet. I am still here too.

 

[Final Escape]

Currently I'm trying to stop taking antidepressants so I won't be stuck in this 'half-dead-half-alive' state. All they do is keeping me in vegetation. However even now I feel peace when thinking about ctb. It's good to hear you start to accept. Maybe when we're finally done we will be able to meet again and know better each other. I don't believe in afterlife but it feels kinda good to fantasize about that. Anywhere but not here. Not in this life. Not with all my handicaps and awkardness. Just not here.

:("

Final Escape, it feels strange to read your words. I know you've been through some very difficult times, but you've always landed on your feet and kept on fighting. I also know that you and I share some problems and your desire to die does of course remind me of my own. Anyway. I don't know exactly what your life looks like, but I hope it will turn to the better so you don't have to resort to suicide. If you really have run out of options this time, I hope your journey will be peaceful.

Thanks :)