when to throw in the towel

[Bluebluecrow]

How many therapists need to be seen, how many drugs need to be taken before you throw in the towel? I have been working hard at trying to heal for almost 30 years to no avail. Therapy hasn't made any changes and drugs don't help. I'm tired , raging and depressed and don't want to do this any more. Every night when I go to bed I hope that I won't wake up alive the next morning. Is this a common experience?

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Yes, I realized meds and therapy do nothing if one's situation fucking sucks and is impossible to get out of. I refuse to be labeled for being unhappy cuz shit sucks so bad. I have situational anxiety and that's it. I've been falsely diagnosed and utter lies made of what I never said. People label and judge me and then go off on their grand vacations. I'm fucking sick of it.

 

[whywere]

Hi! I have been in the grips of depression for over 50, yes 50, years. I too wake up sometimes and wonder "what the heck". I am on Celexa and have been for a very long time. I have tried almost every form of therapy known and it never worked for me. I have also had to go to IOP (intense outpatient program) court ordered, and it did nothing for me.

For me the Celexa seems to help, but the over riding aspect for me is EVERYONE on SS. I finally found a family that I can connect with and understand, as I hope folks on here do about me also.

I have chronic 24/7 pain that does NOT help me mental mood, BUT with this community I have a family that I finally feel as if I am home.

I send you lots of huge hugs, love, understanding and you standing in a field of beautiful flowers with a gentle breeze making them wave in the wind as thoughts of all of us flow with you.

Walter

Yes, I realized meds and therapy do nothing if one's situation fucking sucks and is impossible to get out of. I refuse to be labeled for being unhappy cuz shit sucks so bad. I have situational anxiety and that's it. I've been falsely diagnosed and utter lies made of what I never said. People label and judge me and then go off on their grand vacations. I'm fucking sick of it.

I love and care about and for you as you are a important part of me here.

Have a wonderful week

All my best

Walter

 

[archipelago]

Hi! I have been in the grips of depression for over 50, yes 50, years. I too wake up sometimes and wonder "what the heck". I am on Celexa and have been for a very long time. I have tried almost every form of therapy known and it never worked for me. I have also had to go to IOP (intense outpatient program) court ordered, and it did nothing for me.

For me the Celexa seems to help, but the over riding aspect for me is EVERYONE on SS. I finally found a family that I can connect with and understand, as I hope folks on here do about me also.

I have chronic 24/7 pain that does NOT help me mental mood, BUT with this community I have a family that I finally feel as if I am home.

I send you lots of huge hugs, love, understanding and you standing in a field of beautiful flowers with a gentle breeze making them wave in the wind as thoughts of all of us flow with you.

Walter

I love and care about and for you as you are a important part of me here.

Have a wonderful week

All my best

Walter

I'm sorry you suffered so much. You are a very kind person and you most certainly didn't deserve any of the difficulties you've faced for so long.

 

[rosie93]

If I may ask, what are you all diagnosed with?

 

[archipelago]

How many therapists need to be seen, how many drugs need to be taken before you throw in the towel? I have been working hard at trying to heal for almost 30 years to no avail. Therapy hasn't made any changes and drugs don't help. I'm tired , raging and depressed and don't want to do this any more. Every night when I go to bed I hope that I won't wake up alive the next morning. Is this a common experience?

I understand the exhaustion, I'm sorry you're having to deal with it too. I genuinely think that often the solution to so many of the issues that lead to suicidal thoughts are societal changes. Obviously this doesn't work with everything, but I think it would help a lot. Unfortunately, I think these are the biggest changes to make that people (not the people dealing with mental illness) and governments aren't willing to do anything solid about. It's just shitty.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it can be a hopeless feeling when you try everything to get better and yet nothing works. In my case no amount of 'treatments' would ever help me. My life is simply not worth living. ctb is the only thing that makes sense for me. I hope to fall into an eternal sleep. I'm sorry you are going through this.

 

[BobMorane]

You know, I think at some point, you just know its in your guts. If its been going on for a while its either gonna take a long time to change or perhaps never will but it won't change overnight that's for sure. For me, my symptoms have gotten slightly better after exactly one year but as time goes by I realise improvement is very much asymptotic and has reached a plateau. I remember when recovering my mind after having lost it, I knew I wasn't gonna linger too much in this life, not after all the damages my illness left me with. Af the time I just couldn't explain it, now therapy has helped but only to put into words why I want to ctb. Wish you luck anyway !