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dying_kwik2000

dying_kwik2000

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Nov 1, 2025
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I'm just wondering when is the right time? Should you do it immediately? Should someone wait for the life to change? And how much can you wait? Should you wait so your family doesn't have to deal with other bad circumstances too? Should you wait till your feel like you have permission, in a sense? What if you're tired of waiting for life to get better? What if you're just tired of waiting but don't want to destroy your family's life?
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,341
Initially I wanted to wait until my narcissistic, uncaring and cold parents pass away from old age, and then ctb, but my poor mental and physical health (painful joints and muscle weakness) worsened rapidly in the last 3 years. I just cannot wait any more. I plan on doing it soon.
Yes, it will hurt my parents, but they never did liked me much anyway. Never showed me affection or comforted me when I was having depressive episodes or pain flareups.
 
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hevnsfall

hevnsfall

Cat mom
Jul 18, 2026
69
The right time to commit suicide is when YOU are ready.

CTB for me is my plan C.

My plan B is to study german and move to a foreign country as a travel nurse. If that plan will fail, then i will resort to plan C.

As long as mom and my 2 cats are alive, i will still walk this Earth.
 
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werewolfgirl

werewolfgirl

Oh Vivica, I wish you well
Jun 30, 2026
14
I honestly think that is a personal journey, as CTB is something very personal. If YOU feel like you are ready, then you're ready.
Personally I don't truly feel a call to commit to a CTB plan yet. It's just one of the several plans I have for the future.
It's very sweet you don't want to destroy your family's life, I have this same feeling about it too.. It's a difficult thing, but I believe that you should above all else put yourself first so you can bring yourself happiness/peace.

I hope this thread can help you with your thoughts!
 
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freycinetia

freycinetia

○o。.
Aug 21, 2026
26
I agree with the others that the decision is something really personal and should only be done when you're ready for it. Personally I'd advise against doing it impulsively.

For me, I knew CTB was my answer because I've already put in a non-zero amount of time and effort into making meaningful change for myself. I pretty much came to the conclusion that I have no future, and with only a handful of loved ones left I figured I'd take my time trying to make the process as painless as possible for them. So my appointed date it sometime next year as I make my preparations.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
751
Whenever the fuck you want to.
Thats the beauty of killing yourself.
You don't need anyone's permission to do it, but your own.
 
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Yakui

Yakui

she/her| i stole some bugs to feed my refrigerator
Feb 4, 2023
1,950
when you see fit
i personally think i should have done it at 14, but alas. the best time was then, the second best time is soon to come.
 
Passenger4224

Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
561
Only you can decide the right time. Everyone has different levels of tolerance and limits. You can't force anything either, as I've learned these past few months.
 
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