Venting when is it coming?

[annique]

when is the bus coming? it's been taking so long... i can say i see its headlights at times, but that bus always turns the right before it can get to me. i can't wait to get in it and be in for a journey of a lifetime, i can't wait to be in the void, or in paradise or maybe in a different kind of hell, i just can't stay in here for much longer, i hate this existence with all of what is left of my heart

 

[Worndown]

It is not easy to catch.

 

[Klophy]

Yeah. I feel like i've been so close, only to have stopped just before.

I just want some peace, if I can't get it in life, why can't i get it in death?

I hope you're able to reach a paradise, no matter what form it takes.

 

[Zzzzz]

I feel exactly the same way. Every day I wonder" how much longer?" Life is a constant,heavy burden to me. I want to let go of the burden.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand how you feel. I have wanted to be gone from this world for so long, but yet I am still here, still living this horrible existence. Being alive is so pointless to me as well and I know that everyday I am still alive is just another day of suffering. Suicide really is so difficult and I really wish that it is easier to leave. I feel envy when I hear of others dying, they are free from this life and they do not have to suffer anymore. I hope that you find what you are looking for, I know that it is hard to carry on when you are so desperate to leave.