When do you plan on CTB ? when is it enough or to much to take , Can intense loneliness be motivation ?

[Buddha.e.c]

I feel like a burden everyday i wake up ,When I'm gone family around me would have one less ugly burden in their lives. and nobody will remember me i rather not be in pain then be remembered

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not have a date for ctb, I am trapped in this world as I lack the option of a peaceful and reliable way to exit and there is the fear of failure. It is all so depressing. I feel like only you know when it is the right time to leave this world, it is your life and your decision. I am sorry that you are suffering so much, I know that loneliness can be painful for many people. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Buddha.e.c]

I do not have a date for ctb, I am trapped in this world as I lack the option of a peaceful and reliable way to exit and there is the fear of failure. It is all so depressing. I feel like only you know when it is the right time to leave this world, it is your life and your decision. I am sorry that you are suffering so much, I know that loneliness can be painful for many people. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

i have a lot of fear about how im going to leave (ctb) and will it be painful and long or worse unsuccessful Ive had no communication with the outside world for years , being disconnected for so long has became normal i know im not meant to be here i can barely get up from bed and i wish i had been successful back in 2017 :( i wish you the best in whatever ever journey you in-bark

 

[Zebedee]

I haven't got a date set as yet, I still haven't mustered the courage to go ahead and ctb. I definitely think that intense loneliness can be a motivator. There are people in my life but I rarely see them, they're all settled down with families whereas I spend most my days by myself in my bedsit, contemplating suicide.

 

[deletednumber]

Intense lonliness is one of my reason

 

[georgecostanza]

> when is it enough or to much to take

When you're there I'm sure you'll know and won't have to ask that. If you're not sure - you're not there yet.

> When I'm gone family around me would have one less ugly burden in their lives

If you're worried about being a burden, rest assured (and not in peace) that there are more options than ending one's life to be no burden no more (wheather you've been a burden to begin with is another question).

> and nobody will remember me

nobody remembers anybody. do I remember Sir Isaac Newton when I dial 20Nm into my torque wrench - I don't think so. forget about being remembered - just live (or not)

 

[Lost Magic]

I can't connect with all the fake people out there. It is painful being lonely but it can be even more painful feeling lonely with fake people around you. So I just stay away. It also makes it easier for me when I decide to let go.