Discussion What's your most "unconventional" form(s) of self harm?

[luckyduck]

I use spray deodorant to give myself small bits of frostbite. It's a lot of science-y stuff, but basically the pressurized gas cools upon release. If one holds it close to the skin while they spray, they freeze small parts of the skin. Causes a lot of blisters, and can very easily get infected. Bandages cost a lot of money too. This is my preferred method of self-harm, actually.

 

[foreverandever]

This is something I haven't really thought of. I do some of the common ones, like scratching my arms until I bleed, or hitting my head. But, more unconventionally...I tend to take really hot showers, like almost scalding hot. Maybe that counts? Emotionally I like to watch romance series, even though I've given up on that for myself. I always feel absolutely horrible afterwards, lol.

Oh, just thought of one that maybe counts. I don't allow myself time to indulge in my hobbies and interests whenever I feel like I haven't done enough in a day. Of course, my definition of enough is probably skewed, and participating in those things would help me self regulate, but whatever, you know? Don't know if it counts, but it's definitely coming from a place of self hatred.

 

[ForgetIExist]

Making this thread so I can see whether or not i'm alone in this, but what's your most unconventional form(s) of self harm that don't involve things that most people would typically think of when they hear the term "self-harm"

I have a few that I can think of off the top of my head, one being doomscrolling various sites that are not good for one's mental health (digital self harm ig?) but the other is one I feel kinda stupid for. Sometimes if I have access to it in the house i'll eat things that i'm "allergic" to. Put in quotation marks because i'm not even sure if I'm properly allergic. I don't break out in hives or need to go to the hospital but I do get a sore/weird feeling in my throat and sometimes a dull ache in my head, both of which go away fine without meds after a couple of hours. I figure "i'm suicidal anyway, I might as well eat this and live with a bit of discomfort" I know allergens can worsen overtime though. Dying by frozen Reese cups is an interesting way to go out i'll say that.

I used to bite myself as hard as I could. I think it's a compulsion.

 

[cluefixphantom]

Very unpopular – Self-cannibalism.
After rewatching the series Hannibal and then watching a dinner-themed show, I started thinking about self-cannibalism. It's officially defined as a serious disorder and a rare form of self-harm. But honestly, I'm just curious about how I would taste. I haven't actually done it because even cutting flesh from my own fat leg sounds painful, and I don't have any local anesthetics.

I don't think I'd taste very good, since I eat a lot of sugary stuff. My main meals are usually Cherry Cola or Red Bull. If I were to cook my own flesh, I'd probably prepare it like a fish fillet — pan-fried with some herb butter, grapeseed oil, BBQ seasoning, pepper, garlic, and onion. Maybe add some dill, chervil, and chives too. And I might eat two eggs with it.

 

[buriedinmyhead]

Scratch and pick at my skin until it bleeds or at least leaves a mark. I still get some scarring from it. I wish there were more resources for dealing with this, because most self-harm resources are for cutting, and that's not what I'm dealing with. Haven't seriously done it in a hot minute, so that's good.

 

[woofwag]

I have a lot I think lol
- going off my mood stabilizers/anti-seizure meds
- sleep deprivation
- hitting myself with a hammer over and over
- forcing myself to sit on the floor of my bathroom naked and cold (doubles as a bodycheck and feeling cold which I hate)
- greening out repeatedly
- vent writing but in a way where I just berate myself and relive my trauma in written form
- pressing my eyeballs really hard so I am basically blind for a few moments and it leaves a bunch of dark spots in my vision

Yeah idk. I kinda do as much as I possibly can. Strangely enough I think the worst of these is making myself green out repeatedly. It makes me hate myself and feel suicidal so much more than usual while also immobilizing me so I can't do anything about it. It also makes me very anxious.

 

[InevitableEnd]

self sabotage and bulimia. yay.

 

[divinemistress87]

Yelling at creepy men and saying the most degrading things to them like an Online Dominatrix

 

[neurotoxic]

Calorie restriction
Giving myself black eyes/hitting myself in the head
i let the intrusive thoughts win recently and stuck my hand in the boiling water
watching gore until i puke (i have a pathetically weak stomach these days)
recreational overdoses
thats all i can think of

 

[Pluto]

 

[simji_is_offline]

getting piercings and not taking care of them, masturbating to fetishes I'm ashamed of having

 

[Burning_soul]

TW SA
Letting people grope me/putting myself in areas where that would happen to feel gross and uncomfortable. Starvation or limiting my diet to very specific foods to punish myself is also a go to. I do cutting, burning, and purging more frequently however.

 

[buriedinmyhead]

I have dermatillomania, which is basically where you pick at your skin, for me it's the skin on my fingers and it's to the point where my thumbs are permanently discolored, even though i'm a bit better about not doing it now. It can be emotional regulation but I also think I use it as a self harm tbh.

I do a similar thing, though I don't have dermatillomania. I have a patch of skin on the back of my hand that is permanently discolored as well as some scarring on one of my legs . I wish it was easy to stop

 

[superangel]

impulsive spending. the money in my bank account doesn't matter cause I'm dying soon anyway.

 

[flatyeticorn]

Making this thread so I can see whether or not i'm alone in this, but what's your most unconventional form(s) of self harm that don't involve things that most people would typically think of when they hear the term "self-harm"

I have a few that I can think of off the top of my head, one being doomscrolling various sites that are not good for one's mental health (digital self harm ig?) but the other is one I feel kinda stupid for. Sometimes if I have access to it in the house i'll eat things that i'm "allergic" to. Put in quotation marks because i'm not even sure if I'm properly allergic. I don't break out in hives or need to go to the hospital but I do get a sore/weird feeling in my throat and sometimes a dull ache in my head, both of which go away fine without meds after a couple of hours. I figure "i'm suicidal anyway, I might as well eat this and live with a bit of discomfort" I know allergens can worsen overtime though. Dying by frozen Reese cups is an interesting way to go out i'll say that.

I stop drinking water and stop eating food, completely (not even sips of water or a snack). I will often due it to the point of having some pretty awful side effects. Dizziness, heart palpitations, lack of potty, etc. I've done no water for 3 days and pretty sure it does organ damage. Figure if I can't get the supplies to ctb, then I might as well help my disabled body along.

 

[inconclusivesorbet]

Looking at this site so often and not "living life"

 

[Luvwww.com]

probably scrolling websites and subreddits that aren't helpful to my mental health

Same...

i guess whoring myself out

I wish I could do that, but nobody even wants to use me

 

[GabenBeaver]

I dont know if it counts but im constantly picking/biting the skin on my fingers? its a really stupid habit and i cant stop doing it. the worst part is that recently my girlfriend started saying that i should stop and im scared that she will start to find me disgusting and leave

 

[camusfan_ig]

Indulging myself in my depressing thoughts. Like listening to really really depressing music that triggers certain memories for me. Also occasionally trying to do something to restrict my breathing

 

[plan c]

why ask? logging on sasu ofc. it's super obvious lmao.

 

[violetforever]

choking myself with the rope i bought for hanging. not only does it give me a euphoric calming feeling afterwards, its also just practice for the real thing. my head doesnt pound anymore so i think i found my sweet spot? i just cried my eyes out and did it right now. i feel so light and heavenly laying with butterflies in my stomach. it gives me some sort of high, i cant really explain it. i think i get excited about how easy this method can be and all the peace ctb will bring.

 

[princexhhn]

Uh sometimes I push someone to get mad at me so that I can "get what I deserve". I don't deserve kindness or love, just beat me down and throw me away.

Maybe this counts as self sabotage? My unconventional self harm just being that I try to make my loved ones hate me. Emotional pain I suppose.