Venting What's your experience with lifelong solitude?

[Saponification]

I've never had a single person by my side. My household made sure to constantly invalidate my feelings, mock me, and downright bully me. Obviously, it caused me to be extremely socially inept throughout my entire life. Never felt truly seen or validated, had no idea how to set boundaries or how to interact with people, you know the deal.

To this day, I am so alone it feels as if I don't exist. Like others don't see me as human. The trauma left an incurable void in me.

It just feels unfair, really; I was deprived of one of the most basic needs just because I happened to be born around insufferable toxic people and now I have to kill myself for it, because life is impossible to endure with this particular type of trauma. Life is lame as shit.

Anyone else experience something similar?

 

[Wolf Girl]

I thought that would be my future until I met my partner in my 30s. He is my first boyfriend, so I spent my entire 20s with just me and my dog. I want to throw up when I remember the endless solitude of those years. That was always the motivation for ctb. I know your pain and know that I am extremely lucky to have what I do now.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's so unfair that this happens to people. I hope a miracle happens and you get everything you need and more. xxx

 

[darksouls]

most people in my society are antisocial idiots,
they treat me like garbage,
loneliness is one of the reasons why I want to end this suffer