what's your biggest fear in regards to your potentially future suicide?

[TwistedNightmares]

I'm afraid of failing and becoming disabled/crippled in some way from the failed attempt.
I'm also afraid of potentially being reborn against my will.

 

[Dinozauria]

One of my biggest fears is traumatising whoever has to clean up my dead body after I'm gone

 

[Forever Sleep]

Failing the attempt and only maiming myself. Needing the help of others. Experiencing pain and fear during the attempt. Some concern over what comes next- in terms of afterlife- but, I figure that's there waiting regardless.

 

[hurb]

surviving.

 

[thefarter]

that i will fail

 

[BumbleBees]

Ending up worse off than I am now, and in a psych ward. Losing my job and my career path. Leaving my cat who I've had since childhood. Devastating my partner and my sister. Going to hell.

 

[cluefixphantom]

To survive this or be reborn. I hope my body is not found too soon and my organs can't be used.

I think the policemen, doctors and morticians will desecrate my body, take photos, neightbours will laugh, gossip and everyone has a good time and enjoy it, but I don't worry about that when I am dead. I hope these people get cancer or invaders die from the CO too, if they want to reach my rotting body.

What matters to me is that they can't use my organs. So, the body should rot at least 48 hours, maybe even a week to be safe. I just hope everything works out; this is my birthday gift to myself to be free from this shit society and it's burdens.

 

[Passenger4224]

My only fear is failing my attempt

But even if that happens, I will never give up...

 

[Mr.Tristesse]

Failure and specifically more psychiatric incarceration.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

one of mine is to become famous because i go missing if i jump from a bridge or something and they can't find my body right away.
i don't want that.

that's just one fear tho...
needless to say making loved ones heartbroken

1-Failing my attempt
2- Painful, slow process of dying

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

I watched a video of someone dying from SN and now I fear the pain/discomfort that may come with. They looked so uncomfortable, and it took way longer than expected for them to fully loose consciousness. I almost feel as if jumping would be more peaceful, given it's only a few seconds of discomfort before final peace. SI is a bitch with this method though, I've been unable to jump multiple times now.

I also fear that the person I text to come pick up my dog will not in fact be sleeping, and that they'll call the police which will lead to an interrupted attempt. I can't stand to go back through the mental health 'care' system. I'm taking precautions to prevent this, but it's still a fear of mine.

Finally I fear I'll traumatize SAR/first responders and create a big mess with recovery efforts. If I go the SN route I plan to do so in the woods, and I know it'll be a process to extract my dying/dead body. I hope that I'm found dead and cold, as I feel this will be less traumatic than attempting to save/revive me.

 

[Crematoryy]

My greatest fear is dying alone, never having been known or loved.

 

[SmigSauer]

I think about this a lot, but beyond failing to kill yourself (which I don't think would happen to me considering the methods I would employ) I cannot think of a reason to fear death. People fear death because they want to accomplish things in life and death rips that opportunity away from them. I don't want to accomplish anything. The rational side of me knows that the solution to all of my problems is killing myself.

And yet, I don't do it. At least not yet.

 

[pymeow]

Failing is the most awful, but I've gotten over that, nothing scares me anymore, not even the pain

 

[scentoflavender]

a few things, but mostly
1. surviving, especially with lifelong injuries/damage
2. if i succeed, having my death be on the news or reported online to lots of people somehow. i really want it to be a low level kind of affair

 

[maplebar]

I think the only fear I have is failing. I don't want to be dependent on others, or have people constantly worrying about me. I only know that things will worsen if I somehow survive

 

[rainatthebusstop]

As popular as it is, I'm afraid of somehow surviving. As shit as life is now, I figure it'll only get worse after I get put in the psych ward at half brain capacity

 

[LigottiIsRight]

Failing and ending up with permanent brain damage or other aftereffects. Even if I ended up without long-term harm, I'd still have to deal with family members and acquaintances without the mask of normalcy that I always put on in the interactions with them. After a suicide attempt, that mask is gone forever. A lot of unwanted and very hard-to-face attention will follow.