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franos666

franos666

Depressed
May 20, 2026
72
For me it's the fact that I don't really wanna die. I would love to lead a peaceful and happy live but I am just not able to reach that.
My main problem is depression and BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder). I would say that overall my body is normal. I am skinny but I am 6'1ft so it's okay. I just hate how my face looks and this singular thing makes my unhappy and suicidal. The thought that I could lead a relatively normal live if I just looked slighty different and accepted myself is so fucking painful. I just look around me and I see so many beautiful people anywhere and it really makes me sad about myself.

Other concern is about my parents, especially mother that would be very traumatised if I did it so I was thinking about waiting to her death and doing it then but If my mental state doesn't get better I think that thought about my family won't be enough to stop me


What about you?
 
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witchcraft

witchcraft

it's too painful to live but I'm too afraid to die
Nov 27, 2024
210
That I wouldn't succeed.

Besides what you said in your first couple sentences.*

I also worry about traumatizing others, but I admit in my selfishness that it is a tertiary (or less) concern. I sometimes think that saying "I'll do it after my parents pass" is just a way to cover-up cowardice.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,583
Failing the attempt and ending up in an even worse position. Permanently damaging my health so that I can't work and need to rely on others. Or, that I can't attempt again. People knowing that I failed to suicide. I'm not sure how that would go down with employers and the family/ friends I have left.

I really need to succeed on the first round of attempts.

Are you receiving treatment for depression/ body dysmorphia OP? I'm also waiting for a parent to go before I feel like I can. It's becoming harder and harder to do though.
 
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iguazo falls

iguazo falls

Member
May 20, 2026
49
- yeah actually succeeding with minimal mess and pain
- logistics like money to not fuck over my partner and their family paying for crime cleaning services/funerals or whereever my body is going, or timing so my partner finishes school
- item and online storage management, theres lots of things i would rather people not read or see for their own sake
- knowing what the pigs will check so i can just insult them without fucking over members of sasu, people in my life, or any sources for anything (so far i am aware that they look for notes, go through text messages, and likely internet history. to what extent they will look through all your items and devices i would need to know)
 
chapitaupe

chapitaupe

New Member
Jun 7, 2026
4
I'm really scared of the consequences if I fail, and my family's reaction (either if I fail or succeed)
 
JVC

JVC

New Member
Apr 22, 2026
4
For me it's the fact that I don't really wanna die. I would love to lead a peaceful and happy live but I am just not able to reach that.
My main problem is depression and BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder). I would say that overall my body is normal. I am skinny but I am 6'1ft so it's okay. I just hate how my face looks and this singular thing makes my unhappy and suicidal. The thought that I could lead a relatively normal live if I just looked slighty different and accepted myself is so fucking painful. I just look around me and I see so many beautiful people anywhere and it really makes me sad about myself.

Other concern is about my parents, especially mother that would be very traumatised if I did it so I was thinking about waiting to her death and doing it then but If my mental state doesn't get better I think that thought about my family won't be enough to stop me


What about you?
You're fairly tall, you can always improve your body by means of pharmaceutical intervention and do surgery for your face.
 
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,284
My biggest concern is my old mother. She's very sensitive and has heart issue, so my death could kill her. I continue to stay in hell for her, but I don't know how long I can endure this. I've already told her that my life is over and I won't continue like this (without speaking about suicide).
 
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Passenger4224

I appreciate everything that can kill me.
Mar 8, 2026
186
My biggest concern is how "blind" I could be going into my first attempt. Heading to a location I've never been to in my life in the middle of the night, and having no idea what survival instinct will feel like and how it can mess with my plans. Knowing myself specifically, I don't think I will have much survival instinct, but the amount of people that thought the same thing and felt differently during their attempt is what scares me.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,725
What I'd fear is trying to cease existing going wrong and leading to way worse torture and suffering in this terrible, dreadful existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence truly is the most cruel mistake to me.

I see so much horrific extreme cruelty in how the option to peacefully cease existing is denied with humans forcing others to suffer in this existence that should never had been imposed, there's just so much evil in anti-suicide. All that anti-suicide does is cause way worse suffering and torture and to exist truly does mean to suffer, all I want is to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all, only non-existence is positive to me, I find it so horrible how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible extreme agony of old age.
 
burninghill

burninghill

Experienced
Dec 2, 2025
253
My main concern is not being able to commit suicide due to my survival instincts, and secondarily the trauma it would force onto those around me, especially my sister, boyfriend and mum.
 

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