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NothingElseMatters

NothingElseMatters

Warlock
Mar 30, 2020
745
I don't have money, don't have family, don't have friends, don't have a social life, don't have girlfriend, don't have hobbies, all I have is nothing but obligations... seriously, wtf? I basically work just to survive month after month.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,642
I see no point to my life either, all I do is just exist. If it was easier to ctb, I would have been gone a while ago, all I want is to fall into an eternal sleep. All we are doing is waiting around to die anyway, which is our inevitable fate. Life is just a constant struggle in my opinion, I wish I was never born. I do not really enjoy much, everything just tires me out.
I understand that it can be a hopeless feeling to lack things in your life that you want. Living really is painful.
 
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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
I wonder that myself sometimes. What is the point of living without happiness? My life is meaningless to me if I'm not happy at least the majority of the time
 
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rosie93

rosie93

Student
Aug 28, 2021
152
Psychiatrists should be here, reading all this. Maybe THEN they would be able to find a cure and help people like us. I had no idea there are so many people who have this problem. I wish I could help us. I wish I could invent a medicine.
 
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kingkong57

kingkong57

Member
May 24, 2021
56
I don't have money, don't have family, don't have friends, don't have a social life, don't have girlfriend, don't have hobbies, all I have is nothing but obligations... seriously, wtf? I basically work just to survive month after month.
Born against our will and then faced with nothing but obligatory tasks which don't bring us any joy. I detest life in this light. Im in a similar boat as you and I'm finding it increasingly more difficult to find even the littlest source of happiness. I won't let myself give up just yet, I hope you feel the same. Do you have any hobbies? Anything that's meaningful enough to you to devote a little time to?
I say we pick one thing and work on it, I'm tired of thinking about everything I don't have. Out of the things you listed, which bothers you the most?


Sorry, I missed the point about no hobbies. I hope there is something you find worthwhile doing. Posting on here was something though wasn't it?
 
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again_noidea

again_noidea

Experienced
Apr 22, 2021
254
That is really brutal, especially the loneliness. I was living on my own and I had nobody to speak to, i almost went crazy from being so lonely. i was lucky and moved in with nice people, so i can no at least speak to someone sometimes, although i have to be careful not to annoy them with my problems. But i can tell you, loneliness will bring you down with time. i was very close to ctb. i used to go to the public swimming pool to be at least around people and in there everyone was kind of equal because we all were almost naked, that leveled the field. Showering with others made me feel less alone.
 
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siray

siray

the crucified
Dec 28, 2018
178
There's no one who can understand the absolute misery and helplessness that us suicidal folk find ourselves trapped in, loneliness is ineradicable from our lives. We are the most deserving of death, euthanasia should be legalized for us.
But no, this world has forced me to choose a violent method to CTB, there's no higher intelligence or God that has made me, or I wouldn't be so ugly and weird and would have some confidence in my self. I'm a result of blind will, biological puppets that my parents are, I was conceived, how fucked up unlucky I was to be born. I want to weep my eyes out and choke to death on my tears.

I find myself so fucking alone in this world, I just hope my family lives peacefully after my CTB.
 
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eduardo

Born a Loser
Aug 17, 2021
44
There's no one who can understand the absolute misery and helplessness that us suicidal folk find ourselves trapped in, loneliness is ineradicable from our lives. We are the most deserving of death, euthanasia should be legalized for us.
But no, this world has forced me to choose a violent method to CTB, there's no higher intelligence or God that has made me, or I wouldn't be so ugly and weird and would have some confidence in my self. I'm a result of blind will, biological puppets that my parents are, I was conceived, how fucked up unlucky I was to be born. I want to weep my eyes out and choke to death on my tears.

I find myself so fucking alone in this world, I just hope my family lives peacefully after my CTB.
the most impressive one that I have ever read. 100 percent agree with you.
 
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