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wreckedforever

wreckedforever

M | Any Prns | waiting for something?
Mar 25, 2026
26
Tried hanging myself from my closet pole.. with a bungee cord. :pfff:

I was a dumbass kid lol
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,211
I guess "most silly" is any attempt that didn't work? Well, here's an excerpt from my 'ctb plan' thread where I describe all my previous attempts.

"Let me tell you about my suicide attempts. It's kind of embrassing to go through an attempt and fail but here I am. My first attempt was via a plastic bag. I didn't do that much research and the idea was mostly from fictional television shows. You know how they always show people passing out in like 5-10 seconds just from putting a bag on their head? Yeah, that's why I choose to do it. I was already suicidal and wanted to escape. So I waited until 2 am when everyone was asleep and attempted. Unfortuantly I didn't seal the bag with an airtight seal. I used my hands to attempt to cover the gaps between the plastic and my neck but obviously it wasn't strong enough/i didnt have enough coverage or grip to fully cover the air from escaping. Anyway, I just sat there was I waited to feel something happen and well, nothing happened. Looking back I needed to use something like tape to cover up the gaps, but even then I've pretty sure it still wouldn't work. I can't remeber where i saw this, ive seen some study where someone wrapped a bag around their head and sealed it with tape or something, while someonr else in the room watched. They did go unconscious but SI kicked in and ripped a hole in the bag so air went through. I guess its just not a reliable method so thats why it didnt work for me. Even then I would most likely panic from air starvation and rip the bag off before unconsiousness even kicked in. My second attempt was an overdose via salt. You know, kitchen salt they use in cooking? My inspiration came from one case where someone drank an entire bottle of soy sauce and died the next hour. Unfortunatly I didn't get to succeed with this method. At first, I poured a tablespoon of salt into a water bottle and tried to drink it all down one night but it was so salty and tasted so bad that I almost vomitted. Did not drink enough for anything to happen other than feeling really weird and nauseous. My third attempt was another attempt at salt overdose. This time I tried to just eat the salt directly without mixing it with anything and of course it failed and I was left disapointed. My fourth attempt was yet again another salt overdose which went just as poorly (or good depending on your perspective on life). I researched the method somemore after failing and saw that you would have to eat an ungodly amount of salt to even fall unconsious depending on your body weight. even then it is a long and painfully drawn out process that is essentially, a non-method. Thank you for reading my post."
That's really an interesting ctb journey you've shared.. Thanks for sharing it in such great detail. Plastic bag didn't work for me either.
Salt water i have heard can be lethal due to sodium content but will not lead to death. I'm poor at chemistry so I'm only talking on the basis of what i have read.
Tried hanging myself from my closet pole.. with a bungee cord. :pfff:

I was a dumbass kid lol
Woah . I tried to strangulate myself with a vest😂 i applied all my strength and when nothing worked. I sat on my bed disappointed and then slept off crying😂😂
 
Amara

Amara

Member
Aug 20, 2026
8
Sameee.. i too was mentally zoned out.. You used the right term for it. Yeah. And it's so difficult to find a method that'll work for sure. I'm trying for 23 years.. The number of attempts i have tried is in double digits🙃 still I'm here lol
I used to say that if I really wanted to die I would know how to do it properly. I was so wrong. Now I get frustrated of how hard it is. I'm scared to order SN and kinda desperate. I just want this to end... 😔 I don't want another stay in a mental institution..
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,211
I used to say that if I really wanted to die I would know how to do it properly. I was so wrong. Now I get frustrated of how hard it is. I'm scared to order SN and kinda desperate. I just want this to end... 😔 I don't want another stay in a mental institution..
I can feel your agony. I'm also without a method and I don't wanna end up in ICU again.
SN can be uncomfortable based on what I have read in many posts. People had glass of SN in their hands still they didn't feel like drinking it.
There are many methods as such, you'll have to narrow down on a few methods that you feel is the most apt for you to try. Do ur experiments with them to test. If you get promising results, perfect the method and then go for it
If i was living alone, i would try co method for it being painless
 

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