Discussion What's the most silly method you've tried?

[ctb_warrior]

20 hours of sleep followed by a few days of physical pain and confusion.

That's too much for a 14 year old.

 

[killjohnlennon148]

My first attempt was with 4,000mg of Lamotrigine when I was 18. I had fallen out of sertraline induced mania and felt so suicidal. Called the ambulance after a couple hours because I couldn't walk straight. Was on the side of the road vomiting before the police brought me to hospital. They discharged me the following morning.

Second attempt was aborted but I walked out of my workplace roughly a month after the first attempt. I walked to a local park where they had orange safety flagging and I stole it before ripping the flags off. Walked to the port and tied a noose in a public bathroom before putting my head in it and applying full body weight. Felt dizzy, vision darkened, saw green spots, however ended up stopping because the police were calling me (had previously contacted suicide hotline who passed my number on to police). Got admitted to a psychiatric ward.

While on the ward I attempted quite a few times. Often by tying hospital pants around my neck. Was unsuccessful apart from one time where I was in the bathroom and was pretty close to passing out. Got interrupted sadly. Don't really remember doing that I was pretty spacey apparently. I spent 20 mins constructing a ligature point out of the bottom of paper towel dispenser in the bathroom and fixed a noose fashioned out of hospital pants to it. It was able to hold my weight although I think the hospital pants held me back because 5 minutes and I wasn't even close to passing out. I intended to use a wooden spoon split down the middle and drive it into my neck although I don't know how well that would've played out. Ended up collecting about 140 grams of salt which I was going to poison myself with via hypernatremia although my salt stash was found before I could go through with it. Tried to choke myself with a collection of about 50 soggy paper balls.

My wildly unstable mental state clouded my rational thinking so it was pretty much impossible for me to attempt in an appropriate manner. I was pretty convinced those 50 paper balls were going to kill me lol. Combined with the safety precautions of the ward there was never any chance for me to CTB in the first place. I actually escaped and ran away from the ward with the intention to hang myself however made the mistake of calling a suicide hotline who redirected me to the police.

 

[ctb_warrior]

My first attempt was with 4,000mg of Lamotrigine when I was 18. I had fallen out of sertraline induced mania and felt so suicidal. Called the ambulance after a couple hours because I couldn't walk straight. Was on the side of the road vomiting before the police brought me to hospital. They discharged me the following morning.

Second attempt was aborted but I walked out of my workplace roughly a month after the first attempt. I walked to a local park where they had orange safety flagging and I stole it before ripping the flags off. Walked to the port and tied a noose in a public bathroom before putting my head in it and applying full body weight. Felt dizzy, vision darkened, saw green spots, however ended up stopping because the police were calling me (had previously contacted suicide hotline who passed my number on to police). Got admitted to a psychiatric ward.

While on the ward I attempted quite a few times. Often by tying hospital pants around my neck. Was unsuccessful apart from one time where I was in the bathroom and was pretty close to passing out. Got interrupted sadly. Don't really remember doing that I was pretty spacey apparently. I spent 20 mins constructing a ligature point out of the bottom of paper towel dispenser in the bathroom and fixed a noose fashioned out of hospital pants to it. It was able to hold my weight although I think the hospital pants held me back because 5 minutes and I wasn't even close to passing out. I intended to use a wooden spoon and drive it into my neck although I don't know how well that would've played out. Ended up collecting about 140 grams of salt which I was going to poison myself with via hypernatremia although my salt stash was found before I could go through with it. Tried to choke myself with a collection of about 50 soggy paper balls.

My wildly unstable mental state clouded my rational thinking so it was pretty much impossible for me to attempt in an appropriate manner. I was pretty convinced those 50 paper balls were going to kill me lol. Combined with the safety precautions of the ward there was never any chance for me to CTB in the first place. I actually escaped and ran away from the ward with the intention to hang myself however made the mistake of calling a suicide hotline who redirected me to the police.

Thanks for sharing your experiences in such detail. I feel sorry that you had to suffer so much in life. Suicide hotlines are the most useless. A suicide hotline contacted me last to last week, i asked him if what i will speak to him is confidential, he honestly said that if I'm suicidal and there's a threat to my life, he will inform my employer the next day I acted all enthusiastic so fool him that I'm no more suicidal. He closed the support ticket.
In 2024, i was given sertraline by gp in UK for my anxiety, it increased my suicidal tendencies exponentially.

 

[killjohnlennon148]

Thanks for sharing your experiences in such detail. I feel sorry that you had to suffer so much in life. Suicide hotlines are the most useless. A suicide hotline contacted me last to last week, i asked him if what i will speak to him is confidential, he honestly said that if I'm suicidal and there's a threat to my life, he will inform my employer the next day I acted all enthusiastic so fool him that I'm no more suicidal. He closed the support ticket.
In 2024, i was given sertraline by gp in UK for my anxiety, it increased my suicidal tendencies exponentially.

Yea definitely avoid suicide hotlines. Or at the very least don't reveal that you're actively suicidal. I think they technically can't do anything unless there's an imminent threat to your life, eg you tell them that you're standing on the edge of a cliff and you're gonna jump then they have to call the police. I always end up calling them because I get really lonely right before and want someone to talk to haha

Honestly I think it's crazy how GP's are willing to hand these drugs out like candy. And a lot of them have a tendency to gloss over the fact that quite a few antidepressants have a black box warning of increased suicidal ideation.

Much love, hope you can find peace, be that life or death

 

[ctb_warrior]

Yea definitely avoid suicide hotlines. Or at the very least don't reveal that you're actively suicidal. I think they technically can't do anything unless there's an imminent threat to your life, eg you tell them that you're standing on the edge of a cliff and you're gonna jump then they have to call the police. I always end up calling them because I get really lonely right before and want someone to talk to haha

Honestly I think it's crazy how GP's are willing to hand these drugs out like candy. And a lot of them have a tendency to gloss over the fact that quite a few antidepressants have a black box warning of increased suicidal ideation.

Much love, hope you can find peace, be that life or death

Yeah, I have never contacted any suicide hotline on my own for this reason.

GP's treat us like guinea pig.

Thanks i wish the same for you, lots of love, luck, happiness and peace in everything you choose

 

[carfemtanyl]

I downed all of my dad's irbesartan
it didn't do much except lower my blood pressure so much that the nurses were concerned

 

[ctb_warrior]

I downed all of my dad's irbesartan
it didn't do much except lower my blood pressure so much that the nurses were concerned

Must have felt dizzy I'm glad it didn't do much damage..,

 

[verminnnn]

i tried to hang myself with christmas tinsel once

 

[1984]

Cutting cherry pits open with a knife because apparently they have cyanide in them. I wasn't even strong enough to cut them

 

[ctb_warrior]

i tried to hang myself with christmas tinsel once

That could have been fatal depending on your age at that time.

Cutting cherry pits open with a knife because apparently they have cyanide in them. I wasn't even strong enough to cut them

Woah in 2019 i also came to know that apple seeds have cyanide. I thought i can buy 200 apples and take out their seed i wonder how could i be so silly out of my desperation.
Cyanide gives a painful death unlike the popular myth that it's instant

 

[chaotic_crow]

When I was 9 i thought if I stayed under the water in the tub for a couple seconds it'd do the job. It did not lmao, other than that probably purposely getting myself over medicated on psych and blood pressure meds and when that didn't work fast enough cold turkeying all of them. Don't recommend that one, blood pressure shot up to 200/180 and i decided to sleep it off (hoping I wouldn't wake up) and i woke up to it being 47/35. Not a comfortable time

 

[StoneCactus]

Drinking massive amounts of water in an attempt to achieve water poisoning late last year. Twice. Both times I simply ended up throwing up a large portion of the water and peed clear for a few hours.