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Cockney_Rebel

Cockney_Rebel

Everything you want is on the other side of fear.
Jan 7, 2021
455
Following one of my ODs I died twice, was placed into a chemically induced coma, was on life support and woke up with the inevitable catheter in my dick.

When I was finally brought round (took three attempts) I was completely psychotic, from all of the tablets I'd taken. Thought I was being experimented on, in a space ship. I thought all of the staff were robots, and I was quite scared.

I couldnt speak properly, and had to be spoon fed. I remember trying to compose a text on my phone, but I was so fucked that it took me about 20 minutes to conjure up two lines of gibberish text. I even ripped the screen protector off, because I believed that was causing my inability to text.

It was a surreal experience, I tell you.

What about you?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,680
I nearly got trampled on by a herd of cows. No ctb attempts close to it.
 
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Last chance

Specialist
Feb 6, 2021
346
Got lost in the Arizona desert and ran out of water.
 
BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
Lost 2dl of blood after having stabbed myself. :ahhha:
 
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DunnoWhyButYeah

DunnoWhyButYeah

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Apr 3, 2020
409
Ctb attempt, I was strangled, emergency surgery, inflammation of internal organ (not sure how to say that).

I was happy to be anesthetized or otherwise just unconscious (except that strangling) while those was happening and things was going to end badly, so I don't remember anything. Just wake up after few days or week and wondering what happened.
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
7,183
The closest to death I was was last year when I ended up in a coma for 2 days because of an OD with 100 sleeping pills and anti-depressants.
Waking up in hospital and had the doctors tell me that I should be dead or alive but with permanent damage made me think: "Wouldn't that have been better than being in conscious in this hell again?"

Anyway, still here I guess. and the truth is that having permanent brain damage would be no fairy tail at all.

I can't fail next time!
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
Really?

Where did you stab yourself?
Inner thigh. Was hoping to catch some big vessel in a crazed anti-depressant-ridden episode of mega-unstable overdrive freak-out.
 
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abruptum

abruptum

Lost
Jan 10, 2021
167
have to say as someone who has OD it wasn't the doctors or anyone who saved me it was passing out and seizing on the floor about to choke on my own vomit but somehow rolling onto my side that kept me here, and the other time i took a lethal dose of some medicine i can't remember the name of but sadly all that happened was me sleeping for 2 days straight and then feeling nauseous the following day
Inner thigh. Was hoping to catch some big vessel in a crazed anti-depressant-ridden episode of mega-unstable overdrive freak-out.
so this is why you advised me away from taking a kitchen knife to my throat i see
 
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