sweetdecadance77
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- Apr 15, 2026
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not sure how to tw this, ig tw for medical abuse ?
im not old by any means so most people will ignore what i have to say about mental health treatment, but ive been a client for about 4 or 5 years and have been inpatient 5 times. ive had more therapists and psychiatrists to count, and honestly, i couldnt count them if i tried because they follow the same script, and thus blur together.
first, inpatient is a nightmare rotation. you get stripped of all your rights and autonomy because you "desperately need help," whatever that means. i was once crying in the bathroom, and staff forced me out because they needed to see me, since i guess i was crying for too long. cant even cry in private, how dystopian is that ? ive even had my blankets, sheets, and clothes taken away, all in "good faith" as "we reaaaalllly wanna make sure you dont hurt yourself !!!!" genuinely, i could hurt myself with my own two hands, but you arent handcuffing me behind my back, are you ? they often think im talking back when i say things like that, but i guess im just fed up with being treated like a toddler who cant even be trusted alone in a bathroom. every staff member, when asked, will tell you they chose to enter this job because theyve "been there" and reeaaaaaallllly want to help !!!!!!!!!! you cant help when youre employed under corrupt conditions because the SYSTEM is the issue, not so much the individual (though there are many individuals at fault). i could genuinely have the greatest therapist the mental health world has ever seen, and id STILL end up nowhere because of the restrictions, deflections, and mandated reporting. i wish more people understood that getting a degree to speak with the mentally ill wont solve anything.
anyway, to go back to psychiatric hospitals, they force you into a state of "recovery," but its this one size fits all mold. they make you participate in group therapy; which, in all honesty, feels like a 3rd grade lecture because of how obvious the information is (did you know that anger is the "tip of the iceberg" emotion and youre just hiding your other complicated emotions !!!??!?? dur dur dur !!!). then, they force medications down your throat despite vocal disapproval, and youre even lucky if the doctor will tell you which class the med is under !!!!!! ive had a doctor condescendingly inform me, "the only way medication will work is if you just take it" after i asked clarifying questions about what the med is and will do. lovely treatment from the people who are supposed to care about me the most. finally, they diagnose you with literally everything under the fucking sun if youre mildly defiant and then attempt to feed you antipsychotics that you obviously dont need. docs in mental hospitals just throw around schizoaffective, bipolar, and borderline personality disorder like its snickers on halloween. luckily, i knew enough about myself to fight the borderline label, because i dont fucking have a borderline personality ???? now im not saying people dont struggle with said disorders, but theyre wildly overdiagnosed by doctors who deem you uncooperative, because they think if they give you a large enough label that justifies all the drugs they want you on, then youll listen and learn.
now, i think its time to move onto psychiatry as a whole, not just present in inpatient. the average psychiatrists are egomaniacs who have little to no integrity. they refuse to hear what you have to say because theyve already developed a bias about you the moment you waltzed in. then they begin speed dating, and by that, i mean they speak with you for about an hour for the intake, and then after that, every session is 2 minutes long once a month. how the hell do they expect to heal us when they know nothing about us ?? after the intake, sessions sound like "how are the meds ? hmm. interesting... well, ill increase the dosage- what ? you think the meds are making you more depressed ? that cant be, im increasing it, and adding a booster as well- what ? you think theyre making you hallucinate ? cant be, thats not a side effect, im adding something else, have you heard of abilify ? no ? allllriiight. sent to your pharmacy. have a good day, see you next month." lovely interactions.
now, it isnt all bad, if you look hard enough. i think therapy can be great if youre dedicated to spending years searching for the right therapist. i dont have as many issues with therapy as i do with psychiatry and inpatient, but some still exist. first, i think the mandated reporter aspect is completely counterintuitive. yes, i know what its for, i dont need anybody yapping in my direction about the meaning behind it, it still doesnt change the outcome. for example, the main reason i go to therapy is because im chronically suicidal (obvious, im on a site called sanctioned suicide), and i absolutely cant overcome suicidal thoughts if i need to tiptoe around it with a therapist. if i knew i would never get institutionalized again, i would be 100% honest with therapists, because thats whats holding most of us back. and i dont know about yall, but i cant work with people that i have to hide information from. i remember trying to open up to my therapist about a relationship i had with an older friend while i was a teenager, and she cut me off with "if you tell me you had sexual interactions with him, then im gonna have to do something about it." i never shut my mouth so fast, and i never talked about it again. i dont want shit to be a case, i just want it to stop weighing on my mind, why the hell else would i bring it up in a therapy session ? do i really have to tiptoe around my own trauma in order to take control of it ?? again, i KNOW why this is a feature, i dont need a lecture, im just talking about why its unhelpful from my perspective. it especially sucks when i tell my therapist "im always suicidal, it just never goes away, its always in my head" and they try to hospitalize me. what the fuck was that for ?
oh, i think i forgot to touch on the fact that forced hospitalization is horribly traumatizing because it makes you feel subhuman, savage, uncivilized, and completely broken. youre taken from your home (KIDNAPPING BTW), sat in front of professional after professional, explaining youself time and time again, sent hours away from where you live with no contact of anybody, and thrown in a building with people ""just like you"" "for your own good." for my own good ? when were you superman ? humans need to stop playing god, its my own life and i should be able to do what i wish with it. i could smoke a million cigarettes, drink until i black out, and eat highly processed food until i throw up, but putting a blade to your wrist is too much, planning to buy a rope is too much, you need help !!! you need to be kidnapped and experimented on in a psychiatric hospital !! what the fuck ?
im convinced that the reason suicide is illegal is because officials want more mindless and apathetic robots for the workforce. because, you know, if you get the "unruly" person addicted to SSRI's and atypical antipsychotics, then theyre easier to dominate, easier to control, and easier to sit before a computer to work 10 hours a day. we know the "cure" for what we have isnt medication and therapy, its all a distraction. mental illness is caused by injustice and oppression, but nobody wants to take the "political" route by altering our society and government, nope, its all the individuals fault which is why we are using CBT and DBT to change the way they think and behave !!!!! mental illness doesnt exist in a vacuum or by a chemical imbalance like they want us to think, it has VERY clear causes. im sure everybody here has a meaningful negative event that destroyed them, and thats what i hate about mental health treatment. they try to push this radical acceptance "it is what it is" mindset. like sure, i can accept and move past the fact i was homeless, but im still angry at the world for continuously ALLOWING people to remain homeless. how can i be happy in my life knowing the same traumas that happened to me are going to continue to others ? thats the thing: i cant. but i am ALSO, not superman. i cant single handedly rid the world of danger and hate. i wish i could. i often feel like it would be in vain because the average official doesnt prioritize us anyways. and nobody would take what i say seriously because im just another mentally ill freak with grandiose delusions that belongs in a psych ward for the rest of his life !
we have regressed so far in humanity that we no longer want to live, which goes against basic survival instincts, but all professionals are doing is participating in this crazy mental gymnastics by placing blame upon a person for "being too negative' or "catastrophizing" or "jumping to conclusions." im a bit tired, been typing this for a while, hope its read and enjoyed lmao !
im not old by any means so most people will ignore what i have to say about mental health treatment, but ive been a client for about 4 or 5 years and have been inpatient 5 times. ive had more therapists and psychiatrists to count, and honestly, i couldnt count them if i tried because they follow the same script, and thus blur together.
first, inpatient is a nightmare rotation. you get stripped of all your rights and autonomy because you "desperately need help," whatever that means. i was once crying in the bathroom, and staff forced me out because they needed to see me, since i guess i was crying for too long. cant even cry in private, how dystopian is that ? ive even had my blankets, sheets, and clothes taken away, all in "good faith" as "we reaaaalllly wanna make sure you dont hurt yourself !!!!" genuinely, i could hurt myself with my own two hands, but you arent handcuffing me behind my back, are you ? they often think im talking back when i say things like that, but i guess im just fed up with being treated like a toddler who cant even be trusted alone in a bathroom. every staff member, when asked, will tell you they chose to enter this job because theyve "been there" and reeaaaaaallllly want to help !!!!!!!!!! you cant help when youre employed under corrupt conditions because the SYSTEM is the issue, not so much the individual (though there are many individuals at fault). i could genuinely have the greatest therapist the mental health world has ever seen, and id STILL end up nowhere because of the restrictions, deflections, and mandated reporting. i wish more people understood that getting a degree to speak with the mentally ill wont solve anything.
anyway, to go back to psychiatric hospitals, they force you into a state of "recovery," but its this one size fits all mold. they make you participate in group therapy; which, in all honesty, feels like a 3rd grade lecture because of how obvious the information is (did you know that anger is the "tip of the iceberg" emotion and youre just hiding your other complicated emotions !!!??!?? dur dur dur !!!). then, they force medications down your throat despite vocal disapproval, and youre even lucky if the doctor will tell you which class the med is under !!!!!! ive had a doctor condescendingly inform me, "the only way medication will work is if you just take it" after i asked clarifying questions about what the med is and will do. lovely treatment from the people who are supposed to care about me the most. finally, they diagnose you with literally everything under the fucking sun if youre mildly defiant and then attempt to feed you antipsychotics that you obviously dont need. docs in mental hospitals just throw around schizoaffective, bipolar, and borderline personality disorder like its snickers on halloween. luckily, i knew enough about myself to fight the borderline label, because i dont fucking have a borderline personality ???? now im not saying people dont struggle with said disorders, but theyre wildly overdiagnosed by doctors who deem you uncooperative, because they think if they give you a large enough label that justifies all the drugs they want you on, then youll listen and learn.
now, i think its time to move onto psychiatry as a whole, not just present in inpatient. the average psychiatrists are egomaniacs who have little to no integrity. they refuse to hear what you have to say because theyve already developed a bias about you the moment you waltzed in. then they begin speed dating, and by that, i mean they speak with you for about an hour for the intake, and then after that, every session is 2 minutes long once a month. how the hell do they expect to heal us when they know nothing about us ?? after the intake, sessions sound like "how are the meds ? hmm. interesting... well, ill increase the dosage- what ? you think the meds are making you more depressed ? that cant be, im increasing it, and adding a booster as well- what ? you think theyre making you hallucinate ? cant be, thats not a side effect, im adding something else, have you heard of abilify ? no ? allllriiight. sent to your pharmacy. have a good day, see you next month." lovely interactions.
now, it isnt all bad, if you look hard enough. i think therapy can be great if youre dedicated to spending years searching for the right therapist. i dont have as many issues with therapy as i do with psychiatry and inpatient, but some still exist. first, i think the mandated reporter aspect is completely counterintuitive. yes, i know what its for, i dont need anybody yapping in my direction about the meaning behind it, it still doesnt change the outcome. for example, the main reason i go to therapy is because im chronically suicidal (obvious, im on a site called sanctioned suicide), and i absolutely cant overcome suicidal thoughts if i need to tiptoe around it with a therapist. if i knew i would never get institutionalized again, i would be 100% honest with therapists, because thats whats holding most of us back. and i dont know about yall, but i cant work with people that i have to hide information from. i remember trying to open up to my therapist about a relationship i had with an older friend while i was a teenager, and she cut me off with "if you tell me you had sexual interactions with him, then im gonna have to do something about it." i never shut my mouth so fast, and i never talked about it again. i dont want shit to be a case, i just want it to stop weighing on my mind, why the hell else would i bring it up in a therapy session ? do i really have to tiptoe around my own trauma in order to take control of it ?? again, i KNOW why this is a feature, i dont need a lecture, im just talking about why its unhelpful from my perspective. it especially sucks when i tell my therapist "im always suicidal, it just never goes away, its always in my head" and they try to hospitalize me. what the fuck was that for ?
oh, i think i forgot to touch on the fact that forced hospitalization is horribly traumatizing because it makes you feel subhuman, savage, uncivilized, and completely broken. youre taken from your home (KIDNAPPING BTW), sat in front of professional after professional, explaining youself time and time again, sent hours away from where you live with no contact of anybody, and thrown in a building with people ""just like you"" "for your own good." for my own good ? when were you superman ? humans need to stop playing god, its my own life and i should be able to do what i wish with it. i could smoke a million cigarettes, drink until i black out, and eat highly processed food until i throw up, but putting a blade to your wrist is too much, planning to buy a rope is too much, you need help !!! you need to be kidnapped and experimented on in a psychiatric hospital !! what the fuck ?
im convinced that the reason suicide is illegal is because officials want more mindless and apathetic robots for the workforce. because, you know, if you get the "unruly" person addicted to SSRI's and atypical antipsychotics, then theyre easier to dominate, easier to control, and easier to sit before a computer to work 10 hours a day. we know the "cure" for what we have isnt medication and therapy, its all a distraction. mental illness is caused by injustice and oppression, but nobody wants to take the "political" route by altering our society and government, nope, its all the individuals fault which is why we are using CBT and DBT to change the way they think and behave !!!!! mental illness doesnt exist in a vacuum or by a chemical imbalance like they want us to think, it has VERY clear causes. im sure everybody here has a meaningful negative event that destroyed them, and thats what i hate about mental health treatment. they try to push this radical acceptance "it is what it is" mindset. like sure, i can accept and move past the fact i was homeless, but im still angry at the world for continuously ALLOWING people to remain homeless. how can i be happy in my life knowing the same traumas that happened to me are going to continue to others ? thats the thing: i cant. but i am ALSO, not superman. i cant single handedly rid the world of danger and hate. i wish i could. i often feel like it would be in vain because the average official doesnt prioritize us anyways. and nobody would take what i say seriously because im just another mentally ill freak with grandiose delusions that belongs in a psych ward for the rest of his life !
we have regressed so far in humanity that we no longer want to live, which goes against basic survival instincts, but all professionals are doing is participating in this crazy mental gymnastics by placing blame upon a person for "being too negative' or "catastrophizing" or "jumping to conclusions." im a bit tired, been typing this for a while, hope its read and enjoyed lmao !
