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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
400
What's the one thing you'd like for people to think of you as, or maybe remember you by when confronted with it?

It could be an object, a quote, a personality trait, a story, an opinion, happiness, sadness or absolutely anything.
 
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madeincruddy

madeincruddy

this body feels like a grave
Dec 3, 2025
44
What initially popped into my head was that I'd like to be forgotten, but I think that's my way of coping speaking lol. If anything, I'd want the people close to me to remember I loved them.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
I don't want to be remembered honestly.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

There is no hope
Nov 1, 2025
240
Nothing. I'd rather just be erased from existence.
 
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astroproto

astroproto

and soon enough, i wont feel real
Nov 17, 2025
85
What initially popped into my head was that I'd like to be forgotten, but I think that's my way of coping speaking lol. If anything, I'd want the people close to me to remember I loved them.
I was gonna say the same but you make such a good point. Though it's less that I want to be remembered and more that I want people to have assurance that sticks.

Lots of people struggling with self-worth and doubt and shit and I genuinely want them to feel appreciated. Even strangers whose random video or art or music I like.
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
400
Though it's less that I want to be remembered and more that I want people to have assurance that sticks.

Lots of people struggling with self-worth and doubt and shit and I genuinely want them to feel appreciated. Even strangers whose random video or art or music I like.
I get that, like helping and supporting others in ways you maybe can't receive yourself, even if it may be pointless in the end.
It's a respectable wish.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,137
society treated me like a subhuman, therefore I dont care what that vile scum thinks of me
 
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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,527
Your ringtone :P
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,196
I'd like to be remembered as a kind person but then, I'm not always kind so- I probably don't deserve that. I gave my all pretty much to my creative work. So- if the memory of that lingered a little, that would be nice. I'm not delusional though. There are many more people out there better than me and, I'll be replaced in an instant so- that's an unrealistic wish too. I think I'm pretty ok with being forgotten about ultimately.
 
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Hermitcrab

Hermitcrab

Not an actual crab
Nov 28, 2025
22
I want my League friends to think of me whenever their toplaner in ranked sucks:
"Hermitcrab lives there."
"Hermitcrab wins those"
"Hermitcrab's Morde/Irelia/Maokai was different"
They better lament the fact that I'm not their toplaner anymore 😤
And I'm only half-joking here :ahhha:
But honestly I hope that when my loved ones think of me, the first thing coming to mind would be their fondest memory of me. How I lived, not how I died.
 
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tarnishedstoner

tarnishedstoner

Member
Dec 9, 2025
63
My virtues and my values. How i would've acted in a certain situation.
 
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Chemi

Chemi

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
Nov 25, 2025
312
That i always tried my best to be kind, supportive and understanding. I want to inspire people to try the same. Kindness > Hatred
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,808
I don't, I just want to be forgotten like I never suffered at all, this existence is just so futile, I wish I could just erase this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, all I want is to be permanently unconscious where finally I'm at peace from the cruel, deeply undesirable abomination of existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.
 
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SoulCage

SoulCage

Experienced
Dec 28, 2023
215
Woah, that question caught me by surprise. Made me tearful again.
Probably because I started thinking of my past and what parts are worth remembering. I lived a rather egoistic life. Chased pleasures to trigger happy chemicals and avoided conflict. I don't think I want to be remembered as a kind or supportive person. That would be a lie (in most cases).
I think I want to be remembered as someone who struggled with this reality. And that it somehow changes reality for everyone who is still alive or being born. Making it a place worth living for everyone. Not just the gifted or rich.
I know, a very big and unlikely wish.
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
400
I know, a very big and unlikely wish.
In a way it would be your final wish you leave to the world. It deserves to be big and unlikely and whatever you'd want it to be.
 
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Naz667

Naz667

Member
Dec 9, 2025
24
This question actually kills me, because everything i've built up is worthless. I have no IRL presence so the most people would remember me as is a brother/son/aquaintance. When I play video games, all I notably do is pour way too much time into those games.

I don't want to be forgotten. I don't want people to only remember my pain, burdening them with another sob story of a child CTB. I don't want people to just remember me as a no-life video game player who spent way too much time chronically online. But I don't have anything worth remembering, so i guess im just fucked
 
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whosready4tmrw

whosready4tmrw

The best day of your life hasn't happened yet.
Dec 5, 2025
48
I can't say I know what I'd want to be remembered for, but I know what I wouldn't.

I wouldn't want people to remember the scars they found, or the guilt and burden I've put of them. I wouldn't want people to remember how much I affected them when I was depressed.

Basically I want people to forget almost every part of me that actually existed, and remember the version I manufactured to keep them happy.
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
400
But I don't have anything worth remembering, so i guess im just fucked
I'm sure that isn't true deep down. You have a personality, skills, interests. You say you play games and put a lot of value and time into them. May seem useless and stupid and maybe it is but, shows some level of passion (or brainrot dissociation I'll admit). There must be something about yourself or who you are or have been that you value? I hope.
Wishing you peace.
Basically I want people to forget almost every part of me that actually existed, and remember the version I manufactured to keep them happy.
I get that. It's a painful but compassionate front to keep up until the end. But is there nothing you'd want to remember yourself for? Even a little detail you like or may have liked.
Wishing you luck.
 
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whosready4tmrw

whosready4tmrw

The best day of your life hasn't happened yet.
Dec 5, 2025
48
There's parts, for sure. But nothing anyone else would want to know me for. There's little bits of my life I enjoy for myself, but no one's gonna be touting them if I ctb
I'm that isn't true deep down. You have a personality, skills, interests. You say you play games and put a lot of value and time into them. May seem useless and stupid and maybe it is but, shows some level of passion (or brainrot dissociation I'll admit). There must be something about yourself or who you are or have been that you value? I hope.
Wishing you peace.

I get that. It's a painful but compassionate front to keep up until the end. But is there nothing you'd want to remember yourself for? Even a little detail you like or may have liked.
Wishing you luck.
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

In somewhere else
Feb 28, 2023
1,550
After I die, the way I'm remembered will be meaningless to me. Hopefully by then, I will be in a much better fantasy world, or just sleeping peacefully in nonexistence forever, with this world being long forgotten. People can remember me in any way that makes them happy, otherwise they can just forget me. I don't really care.
 
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unbelievablydead

Student
Oct 20, 2025
106
for trying

and irises i guess 💜
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,567
I really don't want to be remembered at all. I wish everything about me would just fade away forever
 
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collidedsigns

collidedsigns

Scholar of despair and anguish
Nov 22, 2025
44
Personally I've already recorded videos of me singing on my devices so people don't forget my voice. Music has been a huge part of my life so I'd like to be remembered through my guitar and and music
 
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cakedog

cakedog

waiting for the respawn
Dec 13, 2025
139
don't really want to be remembered myself but there's some stuff i love that i really want others to keep
so i'm leaving my stuff to my little brother (mostly dusty hard drives and a usb)
 
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amyrel

amyrel

I just want to sleep all day
Nov 20, 2023
24
I'd like for people to not remember me, but instead my art which has made life a bit more bearable. I would like for people to concentrate more on the pieces than the person and find understanding and peace in them, just as I did.
 
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gunmetalblue

gunmetalblue

Suicidal Jesus
Oct 31, 2025
400
I'd like for people to not remember me, but instead my art which has made life a bit more bearable.
Have you posted your art on here before like on a thread? I'm sure it's beautiful.
 

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