Discussion What's on your bucket list before you leave? do you have one?

[AN1V]

I want to go thrill seeking, something to make my adrenaline rush. and try new foods, experience something new and nice before I go

 

[Nothing Left]

Travel to Ireland, maybe the UK, and Europe and then write some sort of sci-fi/absurdist book.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I feel like I am going to be a downer here but no, I do not have a bucket list. Just in the same way I never had any real ambition goals or dreams since I've been young. I have nothing I wanna do before I die.
Just another way I am pathetic.

 

[bankai]

I'll be going to Portugal for a visit, then Japan.try a lot of different food and nice desserts.

try a few drugs.Maybe ayahuasca.

try bungee jumping and cut the cord on the way down.

 

[Sergeant45]

No strict list but I'd like to kiss someone or something cliche like that before I do it.

 

[Parasitism]

I've been considering getting heroin from the darkweb. I've never done it before (order from the darkweb and heroin) so it's nerve wracking in case the police intercept it but its always intrigued me.

 

[F@#$]

Revenge is on my bucket list.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

no bucket, no list, nothing interests me

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

No bucket list. I'm 56 and lived my life with no regrets.

 

[divinemistress36]

Psychadelics. Skydiving. I want adrenaline rushes to since I cant produce much dopamine

 

[starlightstarbright]

It's a bit lame, but there's a list of maybe a dozen local restaurants I want to try out before I CTB, plus a couple fancier restaurants in the major city I live 2 hours from. I also want to take classes in glassblowing and candle-making, and finish a watercolor painting I'm working on which is taking forever. I prefer food and arts & crafts to traveling or adrenaline rushes.

 

[just a bird]

I'd very much like to row again. Given the timeframe I'm currently looking at, being able to do so is unlikely. Then again, given my nature, there's a decent chance I won't go through with my plan.

 

[coked_pigeon]

Not a bucket list per se but I'm going to try to give myself a pleasant last day - have my last meal at a restaurant I like, go to the park or waterfront to watch the sunset, watch a favorite show or movie, that sort of thing.

There was a time I would have wanted to have one last conversation with the people in my life, but it seems pointless now. Plus, I don't want to inadvertently tip someone off and get locked up.

 

[ginko0]

To try LSD, to read/watch/play as much as I can, to travel on my own at least once, and to eat as many pizza as I possibly can xD

 

[badkarma4618]

try real mdma
visit the town i grew up in one last time
get a passport and travel to arizona
partake in some kinky behavior

 

[J&L383]

I've been considering getting heroin from the darkweb. I've never done it before (order from the darkweb and heroin) so it's nerve wracking in case the police intercept it but its always intrigued me.

Aged opium.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I just want to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, to not exist is all I hope for, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, futile existence I just always saw as a mistake and for me existence is always the problem, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer. I'd just never wish to exist at all, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, existence to me is an abomination and I'd never want to experience anything, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, simply just existing causes me to suffer, more than anything I wish this existence of unnecessary suffering was just never imposed.

 

[NonEssential]

Not really, but recently I met this girl who I might actually be able to befriend. I want to see this through and see if potentially she can be a motivator for me to live or leave.

 

[ThankYouGuys]

I used to think that if I ever faced death, there would be so many things I'd want to do. But now… it feels like I've run out of energy, out of desire. That's why I searched this thread. I thought if I'm going to take a day off work and die alone the next, maybe there's something more meaningful I could do instead. We really have handful of time isn't it? Even if it's been such a bland life, I guess I can't help but overthink because it's the only kind of thing I've allow to know.

The way I imagined CTB was to live like there's no tomorrow, do everything I've ever wanted, and then go. But I didn't expect my desires to die before I did.

I still vaguely want to visit the UK once though. I'd love to spend a night drinking with strangers in the pub, just talking and laughing until morning, living the moment.

 

[AN1V]

try real mdma
visit the town i grew up in one last time
get a passport and travel to arizona
partake in some kinky behavior

real. I wanna try a ton of psychedelics, but I really don't care about my hometown, mainly because I hardly have any memories of it

and real, yes me too

I've been considering getting heroin from the darkweb. I've never done it before (order from the darkweb and heroin) so it's nerve wracking in case the police intercept it but its always intrigued me.

Me too. I wanna work on my OpSec so I can get started but I'm super broke rn. I don't think I can send you any advice or links here but do your research before getting into it

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I've got a couple simple ones I might do. I went to the range the other day and burned off about 500 rounds. My groupings were great, but they were mostly left. I hadn't shot in quite some time, so it's not a big surprise, really. I may do it again before I ctb. I'd like to get on a horse again, too, before I ctb, maybe take a nice, tranquil trail ride, if I can make it happen. I'd like to have sex again, also, but that one may be more difficult, since I have no prospects and really don't even try. Maybe make a trip to visit my godmother and godfather's gravesite. That's really about it. Most of my focus is on getting rid of things and "tidying" up my estate, when I feel up to doing it.

 

[TAW122]

As of current, nothing really in particular and while enjoying some nice food or having some nice music and entertainment, copes before I go is nice, it wouldn't be a necessity. All I hope for is to die reliably (even if brutal due to my lack of access to more peaceful means) and not suffer as much as I CTB. I suppose each passing day until that very moment is all just transient coping and passing day after day.

 

[Terminonaris]

Not anymore, disability and poverty stole all my dreams. I just hope death is better than life.

 

[turbomightbegone]

sounds insanely stupid but i really want to properly animate something "big" before i go..,, and go rollerblading at night again maybe

 

[cait_sith]

I feel like bucket lists are manifestations of not being ready to leave, which is great of course, it means you arent ready to ctb. If you have no desire for experiencing anything anymore you are truly ready to go, which is how i feel, my brain is so horrible i just want to abort it..

 

[Forever Sleep]

I used to. Mainly visiting a few places. I love water so, sea scapes, waterfalls, rivers, lakes. I think maybe as my ideation grew, my ambitions shrunk. I doubt I'd want the effort of travelling abroad now. I'm not even sure I can be bothered to visit places in the UK even.

I think covid changed things for me. Being a total catastrophist, I would imagine the moment I went somewhere public, I would contract it. Seeing as I'm freelance so, don't get sick pay, falling ill terrifies me. Ironically, the most risk I put myself in is when I go to see my parents. (That rather accurately mirrors my anti-natilist sentiments- that parents expose us to risk from the very start.) But anyhow- I think that put me off doing stuff. I tend to pose myself the question: Will this activity be worth risking getting (possibly very) ill for? My answer is usually 'no', unless I feel I have no choice. As in work or parent obligations.

I always wanted to swim in a lake or river but I suspect I'd hate the reality! I imagine it would be freezing cold and very hazardous. Plus, I hate my body now so, I doubt I'll swim again. I love nice food but again, I'm not sure it even matters enough to go on a bucket list.

I think for a while, I've felt comfortable with going at that very moment without having any real burning regrets. I guess that's a good thing. It at least makes me feel comfortable with the decision itself.

 

[Grog]

Ever since early childhood, it's been my dream to travel to Japan. Growing up, I got exposed to Japanese culture through anime on Toonami (and then later just pirating it online lol) and playing Japanese video games on the Game Boy, N64, and PS1. Once I learned that all of that stuff -- my favorite stuff -- came from Japan, I've been obsessed with the country, culture, traditions, customs, and language.

I'm disabled. I won my disability case almost two years ago. But, the SSA performed a rugpull on me and decided not to give me any of the backpay they owe me. Luckily, my lawyer is fighting to get that money for me. I was planning on using some of that money to finally take my dream trip to Japan! But, of course, without the backpay, I couldn't do it. But, my lawyer says I will get the money; I hope he is right.

Before I die, I absolutely must go to Japan! I want to go to all the cool themed cafes -- like a maid cafe or the Final Fantasy and Gundam cafes! I want to visit the brand new Nintendo museum! I want to go to Akihabara and go shop at all the manga shops, video game stores, and the anime figure stores! I want to get a bunch of Gachapon figures! I want to go to the Super Potato retro gaming store and buy rare, cool old games that I can display proudly back at home! I want to taste so many Japanese foods, like okonomiyaki, or those famous Japanese omelets that I see on TikTok! I want to go to a ryokai and have a traditional Japanese tea ceremony! I want to visit during sakura season so I can watch the cherry blossoms fall while having a picnic! I want to visit so many temples and shrines! I could go on and on hahaha

日本が大好き！

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I'm trying to think of something, but nothing comes to mind. There is no joy and whatever is left seems unbearable. I'd like to do something with my person, but if that cannot happen, and if I can't share the experience with him, it really is pointless.

 

[outrider567]

Nothing on my bucket list

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Nothing. i don't want anything from this evil world or evil DNA based life

While thinking logically : if i would be deciding to want to do something in this evil world, I'd be condoning this imposition, the suicide prohibition state, this slavery, and the worst torture