What was this year like for you? I feel horrible

[lnlybnny]

I didn't do anything slightly productive besides immersing myself deeply in my limerence over my fav artist. I know this might be a coping mechanism since she's basically the only source of joy I still have and she made me feel happiness when I needed most.

I feel so dumb and ridiculous because I'll turn 30 next year and I've amounted to nothing in life besided neeting. At the same time I know I couldn't bring myself to do anything productive because I'm not well mentally. People think I'm just lazy but only I know what I go through every day in my mind. It's a struggle to survive with my brain each day but it doesn't stop me from feeling terrible.

 

[reyonrays]

tbh, same! Didn't do shit this year!

Makes me more depressed each time i think about it.

 

[Wendigo]

I lost everything this year.
My health, my gf, everything in a matter of months. I am trying my best not to make it to 2025 tho. Already failed once but will try again as soon as possible.

 

[NeoN0va]

This year was the worst year, once again. Every year has been getting worse and worse, and this year is the worst. I've already had suicide thoughts for a couple years, but this year was actually the first time i've made progress on preparations to CTB. I've lost my last few friends this year, both my mental and physical health has gone down a lot, and I just cant understand how is it possible that a year that in the beginning was so promising ended up this bad. If I make it to 2025, I'm already going in with low hopes for that year lol.

 

[frog problems]

This year was definitely one of the worst of my life. I pretty much did nothing for a year straight. No energy do do anything. Just keep getting more and more depressed. This fucking sucks considering that last year was so good and life was showing so much promise. I guess it's my fault for believing good things would come, because things truly only get worse.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Worse than 2022 (if you exclude the end) but better than 2023. Pretty mid year

 

[trist_]

Well, just failed an exam. Now the last reason for me to continue to live has dissapear. I'm in the process of handling bureaucratic things as of now, I would probably CTB either in January or February.

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

Unproductive.

 

[afternoontea]

Started off depressed and with a job. Now I'm depressed and don't have a job. Funny how that happens

 

[Ethernatuskoi]

This year was bad, just like all the other years before, but I think this one was worse because a lot of bad things happened to me and I started to feel worse than before. I noticed that my depression and suicidal thoughts intensified, I lost the girl I loved, I lost job opportunities, I'm having problems at college and I might have to drop out of it all, I had my first failed attempt to ctb, and I'm distancing myself from my online friends. I had a lot of things planned, but everything went wrong, for once. Anyway, it's part of it, it's normal for one thing or everything to go wrong.

 

[Tuonetar_]

This year has been a blur for me. I spent most of my time working and on my days off, I was too tired and burnt out to go out and do anything or pursue my hobbies. I feel like I stumbled through the months in a haze and when I finally stopped and looked up it was November.

 

[deadzombie6]

This year has been the worst year of my life tbh I've lost the small amount of hope I had in life it's been a miserable horrible year

 

[ConstantPain]

This year has been a blur for me. I spent most of my time working and on my days off, I was too tired and burnt out to go out and do anything or pursue my hobbies. I feel like I stumbled through the months in a haze and when I finally stopped and looked up it was November.

Ditto
Every year this seems to be the case.

 

[Pyxel]

First half of the year was stagnant but things are improving. Hoping to keep things rolling.

 

[3/4Dead]

pretty bad. hopefully my last full year.

 

[Lostandfound82]

First half of the year was stagnant but things are improving. Hoping to keep things rolling.

I like ur profile picture I love adventure time

 

[Pyxel]

I like ur profile picture I love adventure time

Thanks, glad to see another adventure time fan.

 

[Lostandfound82]

Thanks, glad to see another adventure time fan.

Definitely the best era of Cartoon Network

 

[needthebus]

just absolutely horrid. everything that could go wrong did.

i don't believe in religion, but it felt like satan spent years lining up the dominos just perfectly and this year he touched one just slightly and everything started falling down, ultimately crushing me

i don't feel like i can go back, i'm sort of beyond the rubicon as they say, sliding into an abyss or worse in slow motion. i wish i didn't hate the mental health industry so much due to forced treatment so I had some support this year, but I don't trust anyone from that field anymore after how I was treated during involuntary treatment

 

[ijustwishtodie]

This year has been the worst for me because the demands from life are significantly higher compared to previous years. This is a trend that will continue for me until I'm dead and, unfortunately, I have to wait it out until I die naturally because I'm too stupid to figure out how to die

 

[Yurin]

I thought I reached rock bottom a long time ago, but this year has unlocked a new level of terror.. trying to figure a way out but no avail, I hope my plan doesn't go wrong and finally get to rest forever.

 

[n0exit]

This year has been horrible. The worst since 2018/2019, which were... insanely horrific and I thought it couldn't get worse. But whenever I think that, I'm always proven wrong.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Update: Election made it worse for me lol

 

[fleetingnight]

The worst. It seems like that for a lot of people, unfortunately.

People think I'm just lazy but only I know what I go through every day in my mind.

It's so exhausting that we can't explain the reason to people, and get called lazy or stupid instead. I keep thinking to myself, if everyone knew that I think about dying every day, most of my stupid actions would suddenly make sense. But, I don't want to tell anyone, especially I don't want the consequences. It really is lonely

 

[parfumdefleurs]

Not the worst, but definitely not good. Got promoted to a job I hate, and it's making my daily life miserable - the extra money I'm receiving is barely enough to cover medical expenses caused by the stress. Just took 10 days of medical leave because just thinking about work is giving me anxiety, and it's going to wreck me up financially.

I'll also turn 30 next year and I feel the struggle. My bipolar disorder and several autoimmune issues are inherited from my mom, so I don't think I ever was mentally stable or physically well. Feels like I amounted to nothing significant in life because of it and there's not much I can do to fix it besides dying.

 

[Hanaga]

One of the worst years of my life. It's so crazy to think that one single person was able to make this year one of the worst years of my entire life.

 

[graveface]

The crazy-making thing is that a lot of this year has been good. But I still feel this way. I have bipolar disorder and when the depression hits, it hits hard. No matter what I've done, I feel like a failure. No matter how far I've come, it's a false front. I'm not even a real person. I look back at everything I've done or said and it's all worthless and so am I.

 

[Surai]

this year felt like it slipped, but sliced me in a way that felt painfull. Left me here like an empty husk. No Im trying to recover from its attack slowly I just need time, thats all I need time to pick myself up again, no I need to hide, hide away so they cant see me or stay low so I dont stick out, better that way

 

[pilotviolin]

turning out to be pretty dull. i have figured out a rough long term plan that i need to have multiple suicide plans/methods that will still be reliable years later as well as plans for being alive. im observing that few people my age even seems that interested in life. the air is demoralizing and sad. i cant stop spiraling into negative and cynical thoughts.

 

[Leiot]

The crazy-making thing is that a lot of this year has been good. But I still feel this way. I have bipolar disorder and when the depression hits, it hits hard. No matter what I've done, I feel like a failure. No matter how far I've come, it's a false front. I'm not even a real person. I look back at everything I've done or said and it's all worthless and so am I.

Ditto.