owarikigan
thank you for watching my dream
- Sep 19, 2025
- 38
everything feels very wrong, i'm still unemployed and unable to do or grasp most adult concepts and it doesn't feel right to have lived this far or to be allowed to be alive when the disappointment from everyone around me is constantly palpable. my reasons for continuing to live are childish i'm unfortunately hopeful to a terrible fault. i keep trying to set ultimatums for myself, like if i don't make any friends within the next two years i'll do it, but i don't know why i keep wasting time suffering in the wait when it's already been two years of isolation and invisibility, when i could spare myself now if my hope brings me nowhere. i doubt it'll happen but i don't want to get kicked out because my one method i have always relied on is only accessible, hidden away here. if i have to go anywhere else i'll be trapped even more since i'm too cowardly to use anything but something as potent as a bullet
