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MicahBell

MicahBell

the coke keeps me slim, booze gives me personality
Feb 11, 2025
134
Mine are:
-I'm going to see Kill Bill: the Whole Bloody Affair this Saturday.
-Snow. Today was our first snowy day this year. I wanna die on a night where it's snowing but I'm too scared tonight. I'm only happy when its snowing.
-My cat ❤️
 
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statikfeedback

New Member
Jul 22, 2025
4
hope you have a good time at the movies! mine are art, music, video games, and my family. i would love to play gta 6 before i go but that's a long time to hold on for
 
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MicahBell

MicahBell

the coke keeps me slim, booze gives me personality
Feb 11, 2025
134
hope you have a good time at the movies! mine are art, music, video games, and my family. i would love to play gta 6 before i go but that's a long time to hold on for
I definitely wouldnt have held out this long without Red Dead Redemption tbh
 
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Grog

Grog

I am a defect.
Jun 3, 2025
499
Mine are:
-I'm going to see Kill Bill: the Whole Bloody Affair this Saturday.
-Snow. Today was our first snowy day this year. I wanna die on a night where it's snowing but I'm too scared tonight. I'm only happy when its snowing.
-My cat ❤️
Hell yes for Kill Bill! I wanted to see the Whole Bloody Affair in theaters too but I ended up spending too much money on other stuff already lol. I hope this version comes to digital and 4K Blu-ray!

And yes, snow is beautiful and cats are so precious! 🐱
 
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fields.of.wheat.354

New Member
Dec 2, 2025
3
Slightly out of date now, but for a full year it was Wicked: For Good (which turned out to only be okay). Now it's more a change in circumstances and seeing how things go, which is less silly.
 
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Shiitake

Shiitake

Student
Nov 29, 2025
106
Mine are:
-I'm going to see Kill Bill: the Whole Bloody Affair this Saturday.
-Snow. Today was our first snowy day this year. I wanna die on a night where it's snowing but I'm too scared tonight. I'm only happy when its snowing.
-My cat ❤️
aint no way this is how i find out about it, awesome thanks, ill watch it too
 
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forfever

forfever

Member
Jan 27, 2024
54
music
 
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MicahBell

MicahBell

the coke keeps me slim, booze gives me personality
Feb 11, 2025
134
aint no way this is how i find out about it, awesome thanks, ill watch it too
There's a whole new animation scene they never released. I'm so excited 🙏
 
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CerebralVortex

CerebralVortex

Member
Apr 26, 2025
19
Mine are:
-I'm going to see Kill Bill: the Whole Bloody Affair this Saturday.
-Snow. Today was our first snowy day this year. I wanna die on a night where it's snowing but I'm too scared tonight. I'm only happy when its snowing.
-My cat ❤️
Mostly my friends, and playing various card games with them(Joltik Box sweep)
 
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Claymore7274

Claymore7274

never meant to be loved
Oct 4, 2025
126
I wanna finish watching Better Call Saul, finish Cry of Fear, listen to Joji's new album in february.

AND SEE IF HALF LIFE THREE IS ANNOUNCED THIS YEAR COME ONNN!!!
 
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awaitinglove

awaitinglove

what a terrible mess i've made of my life
Apr 30, 2023
76
this might change but i'm a first generation student so finishing my last few classes is keeping me going because i can't have my siblings get the "first to graduate college in our family" title lol
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake!
Apr 21, 2025
1,333
I'm going to see Kill Bill: the Whole Bloody Affair this Saturday.
my eyes just shot out of my skull. i started looking for showtimes immediately. i'll probably be going this tuesday. i'm the kind of freak that watched lawrence of arabia in theaters, and this is LONGER than lawrence of arabia. i've been looking for an excuse to watch both kill bill movies for a long time.
 
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madwoman

madwoman

what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
580
Books and movies too. I'm annoyed that there are good books and movies I'll miss out on but that would be the case regardless but it also annoys me bc fictional lives keep me here :/
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,808
Nothing, I'd never wish for this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and I only continue to suffer as I exist in this horrific world where suicide is a crime where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

All I want is to be gone, for me non-existence is just all that's positive and I'll just always prefer to not exist, I always suffer from being so cruelly denied the option to just cease existing peacefully to escape from the dreadful abomination of existence that just causes and brings endless amounts of harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.
 
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Chemi

Chemi

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
Nov 25, 2025
312
funny pet videos :3

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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
172
Delusion
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Mage
Nov 26, 2025
594
Such a great movie. I watched 1 and 2 so many many times. Such a stylish movie.I was really looking forward to a possible Part 3.

At the time, I even wished I could have learned the Five Point Palm Exploding Heart Technique 😛

Could have used it on myself later -.-


I'm looking forward to watching the next season of JJK. It's going to be epic.
 
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deadanddecomposing

deadanddecomposing

Member
Dec 2, 2025
17
Probably my birds, which sounds really ridiculous considering I also love my family and don't want them to be hurt either. It's just my birds didn't ask to be pets and they're relying on me to do right by them. Most people, even well-intentioned people, don't do right by them. I know they'd likely be rehomed if I commit, but I have no way of knowing how good of a home it would be. Even then, they wouldn't know all the little things my birds like. They wouldn't know Ozzy loves minecraft music and lets plays or that Harriet likes lo-fi and generally doesn't like the tv being on. They won't know that even though Ozzy is mean and aggressive, he's a very good bird. He can't help how he is. They wouldn't know Harriet has a personality deep down. She's so timid that it's hard to tell if you don't know her. They wouldn't know the best type of food for them or their schedule or when to cover them or what material to cover them with. It's silly, but all these little things matter to my birds and they didn't choose to exist. They have no agency as pets so the best I can do is provide them with a life that's better than what they would have had otherwise.
I wanna finish watching Better Call Saul, finish Cry of Fear, listen to Joji's new album in february.

AND SEE IF HALF LIFE THREE IS ANNOUNCED THIS YEAR COME ONNN!!!
better call saul is super good!!
 
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bliss.bmp

bliss.bmp

just passing by
Dec 3, 2025
12
there's lots of games i wanna play and lots of music i wanna listen to. i wanna listen to more bossa and jazz, i like them a lot. for games and shows and stuff, the games i most wanna play through right now are blood, hexen, quake and quake ii, and dusk;the shows/anime i most wanna watch are evangelion, lain, sopranos, breaking bad, maybe it's always sunny too. i've heard they're all pretty good. there's some other old games but honestly i feel like i'm listing too much already.
i still wanna learn how to make music too, specially lo-fi, slowcore, and ambient, i personally enjoy them a lot. if i ever make music i think is worth checking out i might post it here on the offtopic forum, but don't get your hopes up.

of course, i don't think i'll live for very long, but while i'm still here, i wanna try and have some fun before i die (via suicide or otherwise)
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,214
Series tbh like TADC and my dog cuz shes weird.

And my sister. Can't live without my clones and freinds.
 
Tautochrome

Tautochrome

Exploder
Nov 22, 2025
95
Maybe not silly, but snakes. My lovely snakes are the only thing that still makes me hesitate :c
 
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trashisland

trashisland

outsider
Aug 5, 2025
140
in abt two weeks im going to see bladee live so im really excited for that
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
542
A few films and tv shows I want to see
2nd luther film
Michael
Devil wears Prada 2
Line of duty
And the Lincoln lawyers 4th series
 
MicahBell

MicahBell

the coke keeps me slim, booze gives me personality
Feb 11, 2025
134
Probably my birds, which sounds really ridiculous considering I also love my family and don't want them to be hurt either. It's just my birds didn't ask to be pets and they're relying on me to do right by them. Most people, even well-intentioned people, don't do right by them. I know they'd likely be rehomed if I commit, but I have no way of knowing how good of a home it would be. Even then, they wouldn't know all the little things my birds like. They wouldn't know Ozzy loves minecraft music and lets plays or that Harriet likes lo-fi and generally doesn't like the tv being on. They won't know that even though Ozzy is mean and aggressive, he's a very good bird. He can't help how he is. They wouldn't know Harriet has a personality deep down. She's so timid that it's hard to tell if you don't know her. They wouldn't know the best type of food for them or their schedule or when to cover them or what material to cover them with. It's silly, but all these little things matter to my birds and they didn't choose to exist. They have no agency as pets so the best I can do is provide them with a life that's better than what they would have had otherwise.

better call saul is super good!!
I feel that. I know I should be concerned for my family the way i'm concerned for my cat, but what if hes sad when I die? What if they don't do right by him while they're going through grief? He doesn't like them as much. I feel responsible to stay so long as i'm the only one my cat will cuddle with
 
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carfemtanyl

Student
Nov 18, 2025
128
I told myself to wait until a mersenner prime with an exponent over 100 million was found. And then it was found the next week xD
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
271
cowardice and financial issues.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,668
silly-cat-photos-are-only-thing-keeping-sane
 
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Oreki

Member
Nov 25, 2025
99
My fascination with languages, even though I'll probably never get much out of it, and to some extent gaming and art
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,315
i don't consciously plan to stay around for anything.

is life and this world good or bad ?

to me do i think life and this world are something good or something bad evil ?

i think life and this world are very bad and evil.

so to me anything i would consciously choose to desire to live for would be condoning this bad thing called life , condoning the evil imposition and every horrible thing that happened to me and could happen to me.

i also think the pleausure addictions are inextricably intertwined with the worst pain , the most horrible things that can happen to me as both are part of the same evil. extreme torture the worst pain the most horrible evil things taint the dumb fleeting pleasure addictions and everything.

plus the pleasure addictions steal all my time from my real goal my suicide and getting it decided and ready to go

but there is much more

also Eternal Non-Existence is much better than anything . if you really think existing is much better what if someone gave you a choice. in one day you have to decide Non-existence forever or immortality ? if you say no to Eternal Non-existence then you have to live not for another 70 years but for starting a number so large that the digits would first fill a book a thousand pages long years , that many years to start, then the number would keep going into giant libraries filling the whole city the world completely that's just a start to infinity ...

here's the first line of the Number starts with this but keeps going page after page of digits that many years.

100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
 
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reb

Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
167
cough syrup and music
 
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