What should I do?

[cloudman]

I've wanted to cbt for like 10 years at this point (I'm 27 now) and I'm really fucking tired. I've spent a lot of time and effort trying to acquire the means to do some stuff on my bucketlist before I go, but I'm unsure if I want to continue much longer than this. I really wish it was easier to die humanely and I'm kinda angry at myself for not spending more time researching and finding the stuff I need to go peacefully. I know I'm ill-prepared but I think I might just do it soon anyway. I have some very sharp knives, plastic bags, rope, about 75mg of oxy, a whole bunch of seroquel and sertraline, and I can get a fake gun to maybe go suicide by cop. What should I do?

 

[Seeking_Peace]

The cop method would definitely work. They are trained to kill. If you're perceived as a threat they wouldn't hesitate killing you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I think that personally I would only ctb if I was prepared and I was certain that it would succeed. In my case, I have limited access to methods and hanging is what is the most accessible one for me personally. I have never attempted as I fear it going wrong in some way. It is horrifying the thought of ending up with damage.

Ctb really is so difficult after all and I also wish that it is easier to leave this world. It is cruel how the society expects people to suffer for decades against their wishes. I understand being tired of everything. Life really is so horrible and I hope that you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Cali101]

Dont do the cop thing its a dick move to put them in that position.

 

[Medicmedic72]

I've wanted to cbt for like 10 years at this point (I'm 27 now) and I'm really fucking tired. I've spent a lot of time and effort trying to acquire the means to do some stuff on my bucketlist before I go, but I'm unsure if I want to continue much longer than this. I really wish it was easier to die humanely and I'm kinda angry at myself for not spending more time researching and finding the stuff I need to go peacefully. I know I'm ill-prepared but I think I might just do it soon anyway. I have some very sharp knives, plastic bags, rope, about 75mg of oxy, a whole bunch of seroquel and sertraline, and I can get a fake gun to maybe go suicide by cop. What should I do?

Seroquel will only make you seize for 5 days. You could go into kidney and liver failure also. I don't recommend this.

Honestly, don't do that to a cop. I have a friend that is a cop holding a girl at knifepoint and he had to take him out. He has never recovered.