What motivates you to end it

[Yeah21]

Hello everyone, im fairly new to all of this, but anyways, how are all of you motivated to kill yourselves? I am very mentally weak when it comes to ctb because i feel like i still have a lot to give in this world but i also always feel shit almost every single day, so what type of mentality do you actually have or do you just desire to end it?

 

[fluorescentpearl]

The knowledge that when I'm gone I get to be with my beloved uninhibited by this body

Welcome to sasu! I hope uu find peace and community

 

[3rdworldsadness]

That I'm in mess and the death is the only logical way to get out of here. After death I will return to nothingness, peaceful dimensions..

 

[Ben 111]

The fact that I don't belong in this world and I yearn for home..life exhausts me so much.im introverted and I feel like I don't belong here

 

[Cepheuss]

Theres so much that makes me suicidal but the main thing ill focus on is when i failed my first serious attempt i called my friends, i made albums on my phone of our photos together theyre my reasons to stay and since then ive lost all of them and that was only 3 months ago. Atleast i got two of them back but fuck man they were my reasons to stay they were who i called when i failed and then they all fucked off or fucked me over or i fucked them overits all just wrong nothings felt real since. Last time i attempted i just watched one of those videos ur photo album makes of me and my old best friend that pushed me enough

 

[Lemelonade]

1) I've been unable to feel real joy for a long time now

2) I've struggled and failed to fit in my whole life. Can't finish a degree, can't hold down a job...

3) I've always felt like a visitor, an observer, never part of this world

4) I simply cannot live a happy life within capitalism because of who I am as a person

5) I no longer believe I can heal/overcome my mental illness and life struggles

6) I really, really *tried* for over a decade. I tried very hard and failed. I tried different career paths, therapies, moving to another town... I did get better, but not to the degree I needed to

7) there's just no motivation left to live, earn money, go through the motions, etc. while not knowing for how long until I might be able to feel happy again

8) I'm more excited about death than continuing life.

 

[TiredAndBurntOut]

I see the way the world is going and I refuse to be a willing participant in evil.

 

[brokennsad]

To not feel emotional or mental pain anymore. I'd rather live with physicsl chronic pain

 

[Obetydlig]

Because no matter how alone and in pain i feel now, i fel less so before, and it will get worse in the future. Im scared its too late to end on a high note.

 

[LetMeOut67]

*Loser misfit autistic
*Ageing fearing dementia / loss of faculties
*World has become a hellscape on a scale I'd never have predicted
*Culture is uninspiring

 

[dragonofenvy]

I have been diagnosed with depression since 5. I have wanted to die since I was 8. I am now 25. How long is this temporary problem supposed to be temporary for? No, it's a permanent solution to a permanent problem, but I'm too scared to go through with it.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

1) I've been unable to feel real joy for a long time now

2) I've struggled and failed to fit in my whole life. Can't finish a degree, can't hold down a job...

3) I've always felt like a visitor, an observer, never part of this world

4) I simply cannot live a happy life within capitalism because of who I am as a person

5) I no longer believe I can heal/overcome my mental illness and life struggles

6) I really, really *tried* for over a decade. I tried very hard and failed. I tried different career paths, therapies, moving to another town... I did get better, but not to the degree I needed to

7) there's just no motivation left to live, earn money, go through the motions, etc. while not knowing for how long until I might be able to feel happy again

8) I'm more excited about death than continuing life.

Very similar to this response for me.

I'm tired of always failing and being unable to deal with anything due to anxiety and other issues. Nothing to show for myself after so many attempts but also just being disrespected, abused and cheated every time I have to deal with the outside world is what is really pushing me to die.