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TorturedMike888
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- Apr 28, 2026
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The reason I want to end my life is because there's no hope. Everyday I live, it feels like there are things, entities, something, constantly moving over my skin and I can't make it stop. It's kept me up all night many times, and has made seeking employment almost impossible. No doctor, counselor, or medications have been able to give me peace from this. And this is on top of me constantly ending up in situations where I'm self sabotaging myself. It's gotten so bad, that I'm in some serious legal trouble now that could make things even worse for me. My life is a nightmare where I feel nothing but guilt, shame, frustration, and I just want it to be over with! I want the torture to finally be over with! I just can't bear it anymore. The problem is that I thought suicide would be easy, but it's actually not that easy to do. I've thought about using a knife, but they don't cut deep enough. I've thought about drowning myself, but I'm afraid I won't be able to commit to it if I try. I've considered stabbing myself, but I know that's not likely to kill me either. I can't hang myself because there's no where for me to place the rope. I've considered poisoning myself with cherry pits, but even if I ground them up, I don't think it would be enough. I got a tank of helium, but apparently I'm going to need a special mask and bag to hopefully finish the job. Finding the best method has been rough. So for somebody who's poor, what would be the best method to try?