Discussion What is your toxic trait?

[Leonard_Bangley39]

for me, i guess my most toxic trait would be that deep down, i like to make people worry. I'll just turn off my phone and not respond to people's messages. disappear for a while. make people wonder where i went. i like thinking about them wondering where i am, what happened to me, etc. i feel bad because i know it's a bad thing, to want to hurt people like that by making them worry for me. it's a terrible thing but i just can't help wanting people to worry for me

 

[Mrs. T-800]

I don't show my true self, I guess? Or the depths of it? And that creates a bad cycle of poor self-image.
I don't outwardly say my whole true feelings, I just skirt around things or suppress any desire to change or address things that disagree with me, and I am pretty regressed due to childhood trauma, so I have trouble "womaning up" and acting my age sometimes. Sometimes that brings about selfishness too; I get stubborn and set in not bringing up what's bothering me, so then that makes some situation all about me because I won't speak up and I bring everything down.
I don't show my true self, I guess? Or the depths of it? And that creates a bad cycle of poor self-image.
I don't outwardly say my whole true feelings, I just skirt around things or suppress any desire to change or address things that disagree with me, and I am pretty regressed due to childhood trauma, so I have trouble "womaning up" and acting my age sometimes. Sometimes that brings about selfishness too; I get stubborn and set in not bringing up what's bothering me, so then that makes some situation all about me because I won't speak up and I bring everything down.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

The irrational level of jealousy I experience. If I like a guy I'll get jealous over him even having a normal conversation with another girl. I get jealous to a very unhealthy extent over the littlest most meaningless things, and it feels like it drives me to insanity.

 

[Wojaczek]

jealousy & bitterness

 

[dustoff]

Resentment

 

[SASU-KE]

I don't show my true self, I guess? Or the depths of it? And that creates a bad cycle of poor self-image.
I don't outwardly say my whole true feelings, I just skirt around things or suppress any desire to change or address things that disagree with me, and I am pretty regressed due to childhood trauma, so I have trouble "womaning up" and acting my age sometimes. Sometimes that brings about selfishness too; I get stubborn and set in not bringing up what's bothering me, so then that makes some situation all about me because I won't speak up and I bring everything down.
I don't show my true self, I guess? Or the depths of it? And that creates a bad cycle of poor self-image.
I don't outwardly say my whole true feelings, I just skirt around things or suppress any desire to change or address things that disagree with me, and I am pretty regressed due to childhood trauma, so I have trouble "womaning up" and acting my age sometimes. Sometimes that brings about selfishness too; I get stubborn and set in not bringing up what's bothering me, so then that makes some situation all about me because I won't speak up and I bring everything down.

And also you double posted ^^^^. That's another one.

 

[Mrs. T-800]

And also you double posted ^^^^. That's another one.

Oh, gosh, that's so embarrassing. Probably I meant to copy and paste something else. I'm glad you can laugh at this, everyone in need of an upper today, please look and point and laugh. I don't have the heart to fix it now LOL.

 

[Forveleth]

Probably a lack of compassion. I used to have so much love, empathy, and understanding for every single person. Then I got so little of it back from everyone in my life that I am all empty. I sound like a grumpy old curmudgeon now. I do not reply to a lot of posts because I know my answers would not be nice.

 

[raincandy_v]

I am overly emotional. I feel like I kind of bleed the lines of menhera/jirai-kei.

If i get attached to someone, I don't want to really share them. I want to talk to them all the time or spend time with them every day.

I can understand spending time with "other friends" with a few things. Being bi, if I am dating a guy I don't want him around other girls. If I date a girl, I get really uncomfy with them around anyone I don't know. I tend to make things from what would be nothing. Being too kind I will think my partner is flirting with someone, or if they are giving small responses (busy or anything else) I immediately go into a "you hate me, what did I do wrong why are you upset with me?" mentality.

Being needy some see it as a "bonus" or a "positive" until they're really around it and then they get annoyed quickly and usually leave.

 

[certified_idiot]

Probably my avoidance of other people. I need support because of my disabilities, but I can't let myself get close enough to other people to form a true support system. I'm trying to take care of myself, but my disorder is progressive, so I won't be able to at some point. I'm running on fumes. I'm going to have to die eventually, but I'd rather have it be quick and soon than slow and late.

 

[camusfan_ig]

Envy and being too caught up in the past, both the good and bad

 

[Heavy_Metals117]

I want friends and connections but I think I don't care enough about other people to do that. Or maybe it seems that way because I suck at talking to people/understanding them, both verbally if I'm unfamiliar with their voice, and emotionally. Usually I'll just sit there paralyzed with fear and confusion if talked to or in a situation where I could talk first, like a short circuit. Or I won't say anything because I truly just don't know what to say. I rarely talk with my voice unless I'm already close to someone, which I haven't been in a very long time. If I talk to someone it's usually about myself because that's what I know, and I'm not used to talking to other people or about them, even online. This is the first space online where I haven't just lurked and have actively participated because I'm trying to change. Also I think I lie by accident a lot because I have a horrible memory, so that sucks too.

 

[Heavy_Metals117]

i relate to all of this so much. i haven't met another person that worries about lying by accident too. it makes it so hard to put yourself out there

Me neither, it seems like a unique problem and I have no idea why it happens. Maybe it's diet or vitamin deficiency or something else just wrong with the brain. What do you think?

 

[violetforever]

being avoidant

 

[Pluto]

 

[virdzina]

Vulnerable narcissism

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Holding grudges.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Selfishness. I rarely do things for other people.