Discussion What is your main reason why you're suicidal?

[Aren]

This is the reason why I don't trust therapists, psychologists, psychiatrist and all the rest... these people don't give a single fuck about your well-being you're just money to them, I've had a school counseller once who tried SO HARD to lock me up and by this time I didn't even know anything about suicide and I wasn't even suicidal I was like 11 or something and she gave a letter to my social worker that I told her that I wanted to commit suicide... I've had another social worker who was so manipulative and after she become my mom's social worker she acted like she didn't even know me what a bitch...

I'm upset for you because 1 person destroyed your entire relationship and life over their own bullshit and greed, fuck that therapist I hope she burns in hell

Yes some people are pathetic... And should never allowed to "help" people.
My individual therapist is often with irrealistic dreams of recover but he helps me a lot too and was the only person to came at my home and allow me to have a walk near the sea, he came with a friend who love also video games and movies like me and he even pay me some food. I think some are helpful and others use the picture of helpful people to scam people like us and destroy our lives.

 

[ZwartHartje]

My reason isn't the loss of one but of many, many loved ones, to mass murder. Their murderers are still free and presumably happy. I have no one left here.

 

[seeyoulater26]

My stupid toxic family is probably number 1. I have an abusive narcissistic mother with violent tendencies who terrorizes us all.
I love my dad and my sister and they're so different from her, but they're always enabling her because they're big believers of the "whole family"illusion. We had the chance to run away a couple of years ago but after a year of hiding, I woke up with her in the apartment we were staying at. My dad and my sister conspired to bring her there. Big idiots tbh. They fell for her "I changed" act. But I knew it was only a matter of time before she showed her true self again and I was right.

With the safe space compromised, I now live alone, which helps my mind a lot but since we're family, I'm never truly out of the loop.
I can feel them dragging me down, emotionally and financially. Sometimes I just want to disappear from their lives forever, but I know I don't really have it in me to do that.

I want to CTB like my brother did. Just end it once and for all so I can have peace. Maybe I will. Idk. I'm trying to recover.

 

[red_cardinal]

I believe I am suicidal because of childhood abuse. Neglect. Physical abuse. And then layer everything else on top of that. Fundamentally I struggle to live because there are so many strong persons around me who walk over my boundaries and I hate myself so much I have no energy to take up space and it just fuels a cycle of self hatred and pointlessness and 'this will never get better'

I'm sorry you're struggling. What you wrote is painfully relatable.

 

[pieceoffox]

I have mental health issues and a lack of understanding of the meaning of life. Overall, I perceive life as an eternal torture that can only end by disappearing into oblivion. It's actually very difficult; even work is very difficult for me under these conditions

 

[mob]

For me, it's difficult to put it in words (as in reasons) because I believe it's something that was always meant to happen.
I have had a bad past, and my life is a terribly unlucky one (I get told that a lot whenever I do open up). It has always been. And with no doubt, it will always continue to be this way.
And then, suddenly comes a time where everything in life is fine for a brief moment, and even then, I know I'm going to CTB. It's settled deep into my bones.

I can't piece it together in a way of me being neurodivergent, poor, unstable, or being lonely. It is just a state of being.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

exhaustion, loneliness and anxiety

 

[AgnesTachyon]

im just not built for this life. ive wanted to die since i have consciousness. existence itself is the source of my distress.​