What is your driving motivation for recovery?

[Afterglow]

I don't have much of anything going right for me in life other than meeting some nice folks. What keeps you here on this Earth and striving to get better? I couldnt be honest with my therapist because I was scared. If I tell her everything that i feel and think then im going to be locked up and lose my job. I dont know what to do tbh. Im going to end up dying if i dont get severe help though.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I think, currently, it's the possibility of recovery through my own hands and seeing my boyfriend happy.
I've tried a lot of therapy and I'm done with it. I was having some breakthroughs with my own recovery method during the end of the year but then life came crashing down. I'm hoping I can still salvage this year and feel better, somehow.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Suffering not as bad despite no real change in life situation due to a consistent meditation habit started last year + want the best for my family + want to keep trying to redeem myself/help others/etc. Maybe you could tell your therapist enough to get help/get to a spot where you feel you can be honest with the therapist? What kind of help are you looking for from them?

 

[vitbar]

I actually love life when not in a depressive episode.

 

[milkteacrown]

I'd like to feel less apathetic. I think if I didn't have apathy, my desire to CTB would decrease greatly. I hope that the more I recover, the more emotions I'll be able to feel.