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turtle2

Member
Jan 16, 2026
21
Easy. Natural death in my sleep.
 
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hailspark

hailspark

hail
Jan 23, 2024
27
I'd like to die in some sort of terrible accident so no one would think I ever wanted to die. (That doesn't know already).
 
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MyLifeisHell

MyLifeisHell

It hurts
Jul 23, 2022
4,784
By this point? One that fucking actually happens
 
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yourlocalprotist

A-B-C-D-E-F-U-C-K-I-C-E
Jan 29, 2026
3
I fantasize about a scenario quite similar to this. I want to die in the arms of someone who understands. Someone who would make sure it all goes smoothly. Of course, there are legal barriers to this actually happening.
I have this romanticized idea in my head of a lover consensually killing me, maybe via poison of some kind, and cradling my head in their lap as I die. They make me look beautiful and serene, and then take care of my bones for the rest of their life. However I know it wouldn't be so painless or pretty in real life, so it's not really a genuine desire. I think I just want to go knowing that I'm loved and will be cared for in death. To end by the hand of someone who loves you enough to make it gentle, painless, and loving... I like the idea of it, at least.
Sorry, I fucked up the formatting.
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,692
Vanish to a place where there are no other people, and without anybody else knowing that I have gone. A note will still be left behind (anonymously) in case the body is found by a stranger.

My ideal death? Undecided. Preferably a method that has a very high chance of succeeding, but will not immediately destroy my body and will not make a mess.
 
Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
83
If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?
Bleeding out in the snow, shot by a G3, 3 times. Lungs filling up with blood as I fade. That's basically it.

I write sometimes and this was how one of my characters dies, only one to get hit in an L shape ambush, they can't get to him because they're getting absolutely drilled by accurate fire, so they have to leave him.
 
rotten_hrtz

rotten_hrtz

(Ć³ļ¹Ć²ļ½”)
Nov 25, 2025
46
If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.

For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?
I think my idea of a peaceful suicide is VERY unrealistic, but I would love to die in my sleep and, before dying, enter a beautiful dream where my life is different, a life where my dad did love me, in my dream I will see the people I miss and everything will be perfect and after that lovely dream, I'll die without pain. I think my dream sounds really ridiculous haha
 
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kiki123

Member
Jan 9, 2026
6
one press on a button and I'm gone. fast and painless. hopefully erasing loved ones memories of me like I never existed in this world
 
hurb

hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
137
imagine sleeping and u simply dont wake up. imagine all that guilt tripping ur close one used to tell u : what will u do when we die? what about ur future etc etc...
nah bitch , I died naturally before ur bitch ass. skill fucking issue.
mannn that would be peakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
 
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itwasnevermeanttobe

Member
Jan 28, 2026
8
I would want it to be as quick and painless as possible, and wipe out the memory of ever existing to every person who has ever spoke to me or met me, including my friends, family, and coworkers. People will only see a dead stranger when they find my body, preferably outside somewhere. I wouldn't want the ones closest to me to feel any sort of emotional burden or grief; I'd want to spare them the pain. After all, we are insignificant beings in the observable universe always trying to fill the shoes of people we can't. There will always be pain and suffering in this world and the thought alone saddens me.
 
Meimi18

Meimi18

Beep boop
Nov 1, 2023
91
Cold winter, lots of snow
I freeze to death

In an ideal world I'd be lucid and awake to see it but that would be painful. I guess being drunk or high or both going out wouldn't be too bad I guess
 
tomatriste

tomatriste

hopeless šŸ’”
Dec 28, 2025
54
i'd like to drown .. but unfortunately i learned to swim
 
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Salkak

Student
Dec 9, 2021
118
For me dream suicide would be in winter months. I'll go to a scenic place and park my car and burn some coal inside and drink sn. Then I'll listen to music as I wait for my death. I would love if I could do it with someone. Idk this all sounds stupid. But I feel this is very much possible hopefully
 
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urgent

Student
Dec 6, 2025
120
if i could magically have whatever i wanted, i'd die falling asleep in my girlfriend's arms… more realistically, though, my ideal suicide would be somewhere outdoors. in a forest, maybe. i'd lay out a blanket for myself, drink the sn and then lie back and look up at the trees and peacefully slip away, hopefully. that sounds fairly plausible, right? i often think about what song i'd want to be listening to when i die, but i've decided i think i should go quietly.
I like the outdoors but I wish I could just get a quick nembutal death on a beautiful beach, warm sun,not to hot or to bright, sound of gentle waves. Forest sounds nice too.
 
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MonochromeMind

MonochromeMind

Artist-ish
Jan 26, 2026
69
Being shot in the head in my sleep tonight.
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
381
saving someone life cheesy i know and it might not be considered suicide but thats how i would like to go out
 
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MonochromeMind

MonochromeMind

Artist-ish
Jan 26, 2026
69
Being shot in the head in my sleep tonight.
I was sleep deprived when I wrote this, this is not suicide obviously lol. Uhhh, drinking a special kind of poison that shuts down my brain before I feel any pain and kills me? But I don't know what that would be.
So, for a bit more realism, I'll just say, listening to music, shooting myself in the head, and pulling the trigger during a beat drop of Professional Vengeance by Jane Remover lol
 
vyvanceandvodka

vyvanceandvodka

hoping to recover .✦ ݁˖♔
Jan 7, 2026
141
dying in my sleep, if that counts.
 
xXiloveyouXx

xXiloveyouXx

"was" is the saddest word of all
Jul 27, 2024
27
In the springtime. Suicide pact with someone I love. We jump off of something high together (like in my pfp lol) or we shoot each other in the head at the same time. Hopefully they bury us in the same plot so we can be together forever.
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northerner

northerner

Member
Feb 2, 2026
6
surrounded by loved ones who'd support my decision (i can only dream), then some kind of pill that would kill me immediately and painlessly
 
vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
592
A simple shotgun blast to the head, preferably while I sit alone in a national park, admiring the view and nature.