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Sorry, I fucked up the formatting.I have this romanticized idea in my head of a lover consensually killing me, maybe via poison of some kind, and cradling my head in their lap as I die. They make me look beautiful and serene, and then take care of my bones for the rest of their life. However I know it wouldn't be so painless or pretty in real life, so it's not really a genuine desire. I think I just want to go knowing that I'm loved and will be cared for in death. To end by the hand of someone who loves you enough to make it gentle, painless, and loving... I like the idea of it, at least.
Bleeding out in the snow, shot by a G3, 3 times. Lungs filling up with blood as I fade. That's basically it.If you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.
For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?
I think my idea of a peaceful suicide is VERY unrealistic, but I would love to die in my sleep and, before dying, enter a beautiful dream where my life is different, a life where my dad did love me, in my dream I will see the people I miss and everything will be perfect and after that lovely dream, I'll die without pain. I think my dream sounds really ridiculous hahaIf you could die any way at all in any conditions you like, how would you do it & what would you want? As idealized & romantic & brutal as you want.
For me, I am going to kill myself sometime around May 21st. My birthday is the 16th & I will have taken my very first trip outside of Ohio to go to the Met. I wake up very very early in the morning, have some tencha with honey, then walk for many miles through a trail that goes by my town to this lake. And I sit down & finish one last book, & am done. I become fatigued & heavy, & I can't even lift my head, so I loll & go. I have flipped back & forth on playing music. I would play Strawberry Fields Forever. It's the first somg I ever listened to. Maybe it can play on the way there& then I can just listen to the wind & birdsong when I die. How quaint is that?
I like the outdoors but I wish I could just get a quick nembutal death on a beautiful beach, warm sun,not to hot or to bright, sound of gentle waves. Forest sounds nice too.if i could magically have whatever i wanted, i'd die falling asleep in my girlfriend's arms⦠more realistically, though, my ideal suicide would be somewhere outdoors. in a forest, maybe. i'd lay out a blanket for myself, drink the sn and then lie back and look up at the trees and peacefully slip away, hopefully. that sounds fairly plausible, right? i often think about what song i'd want to be listening to when i die, but i've decided i think i should go quietly.
I was sleep deprived when I wrote this, this is not suicide obviously lol. Uhhh, drinking a special kind of poison that shuts down my brain before I feel any pain and kills me? But I don't know what that would be.Being shot in the head in my sleep tonight.
i dont think its cheesy. i have a lot of respect for that.saving someone life cheesy i know and it might not be considered suicide but thats how i would like to go out