Discussion What is the worst part of the day for you?

[Mental666]

I noticed that morning is the worst part of my day for my mental health. Most often I wake up feeling like shit and being extremely stressed and I start thinking about myself and life overall (I have BDD). I think also about self-harm and cbt or about my hatred to some people for example in my family and I even have fantasies about something bad happening to them but of course I wouldn't harm anyone etc. This state makes it very hard to get out of the bed and do anything. It takes me on avarage around 2-3 hours to just get up and do something good like brushing teeth, eating breakfast or taking my SNRI.

After few hours my mental state become more stable but obviously not close to healthy. What about you?

 

[hughmun9]

all of it. given that I'm kind of a neet at the moment, I feel no separation between segments of the day. it's just one long uninterrupted sleepwalking session

 

[Spite]

Waking up at 5AM, dragging myself to work, and spending the morning feeling like a robot being stuck at my job doing the same boring, pointless, mundane shit for hours on end. The mornings especially are an absolute drag.

 

[darksouls]

when I wake up from my nightmares and realize that I am in the worst nightmare of all - REALITY

 

[hevnsfall]

Mornings are also the worst for me. I have generalized anxiety disorder and my cortisol levels are sky high in the morning. Ruminating about my mom dying and me CTB.. my heart beating fast and dry heaving. It sucks big time.

 

[Macedonian1987]

The worst part for me is the morning. I have to face another day of sadness, loneliness, sadness and pain in my body. Also the pain in my joints is the worst when I get up.

when I wake up from my nightmares and realize that I am in the worst nightmare of all - REALITY

There is one thing even worse than this. Dreaming that you have a beautiful life. In your dream you are loved, you have friends, your health is perfect, and poof... you wake up and realize it was all a dream.

Whenever this happens to me I start the day with crying. Thank God this rarely happens to me.

 

[charlieee]

I noticed that morning is the worst part of my day for my mental health. Most often I wake up feeling like shit and being extremely stressed and I start thinking about myself and life overall (I have BDD). I think also about self-harm and cbt or about my hatred to some people for example in my family and I even have fantasies about something bad happening to them but of course I wouldn't harm anyone etc. This state makes it very hard to get out of the bed and do anything. It takes me on avarage around 2-3 hours to just get up and do something good like brushing teeth, eating breakfast or taking my SNRI.

After few hours my mental state become more stable but obviously not close to healthy. What about you?

The morning is really the worst part. I have to draaag myself out of my bed, sometimes I can't even bring myself to do it. It used to be so hard for me I would cry my heart out every time I woke up. Now I'm over crying, it's just torture at this point.

 

[_Gollum_]

Probably during the late afternoon/early evening, when things start winding down and I have fewer tasks to distract myself with, but it's too early to go to bed.
Probably during the late afternoon/early evening, when things start winding down and I have fewer tasks to distract myself with, but it's too early to go to bed.

 

[Manfrotto99]

All day, but the worst is waking to the reality of my life and freaking out how I'm going to get through another day of saddhess, grief and loss.

 

[thelostautistic]

Since I was 19 I've mostly struggled with the evenings. That's when the urges to drink and be self destructive are heightened. I think this is because I used to go out a lot at night and cause havoc for myself. It became a routine back then. I have to fight everyday for that to not be my routine again.

 

[outrider567]

When it gets dark

 

[Ultimatefighter]

Yesterday

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yup, when I first wake up & realize that yes, this is really happening & there's only one way to make it end.

 

[Red.one]

Waiting for sleep that doesn't come. Rolling from side to side and cursing pills that fails to put me to sleep.
Hours of struggle.

And then. Waking up. I just can't. I'm a zombie. When I finally fall asleep I sleep for 12+ hours and nothing can wake me up. Sometimes I "sleepwalk" when somebody try to wake me up. It's THE WORST. I maintain eye contact, I talk and can have full conversations, sometimes I even get up and do something. But I'm sill asleep and later don't remember what I said, what I did and what I heard. Last month I picked up a phonecall from my friend when I was still asleep. We planned a meeting, but I had no idea about it! She called me next day, waiting for me on the other side of the city... It's terrifying.

 

[Tyra]

I'm opposite to you. In the morning I feel refreshed. But at night time the stress builds up and I feel more alone with my thoughts and it's a really uncomfortable and painful time.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Waking up. I hate being awake during the day. I wish I can just sleep for the rest of my life.

 

[glass-petal]

late at night just before I go to bed for me. (aka right now haha) it's a time the distractions of the day finally disappear, and I'm left alone with my thoughts. the fact I'm living the same day over and over again with no escape, the fact that I'm just not cut out for the world I'm in. It all tends to hit me at once

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Any time of day that requires me to respond to phone calls.

 

[EternalShore]

It's always depended on whenever my mood swings tbh~

when I was in high school, if I stayed up past 9 pm, I'd get depressed~ >_< From what I hear, I have a tendency to get more depressed on days where I have work later~ I theorize this is because on those days, my free time is heavily constrained, all the chores are back-to-back-to-back with no breaks (driving->work->driving->shave [body hair]->any leftover exercise->shower->eat->any leftover studying) and the whole day ultimately ends up just being a waste~

 

[caotic_realm]

Waking up is an uncomfortable moment; I think of it as "returning to this world." Dreams can involve nightmares, memories, or anything surreal, but waking up and realizing that reality is there waiting for you is one of the worst parts of the day.

 

[TheCavernousDeep.]

Waking up. 100% the worst part. Close second is the end of the day when I realize I haven't been nearly productive enough.

 

[tiramisu]

the worst part of my day is waking up and realizing that i'm still alive.

 

[hdead]

Mornings for sure. Lately I have been having lovely dreams only to wake up to realize I'm still here in this mess of my own making.

Evenings are generally better but when I am about to go to bed the anxiety hits me like a train and if I don't medicate I basically don't sleep.

Fun times.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is all torturous, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the terrible, dreadful burden of existence that I just always saw as a mistake and it's just so terrible how humans cause all this futile suffering by imposing this existence with no limit as to how much one can be tortured to me existence will just always be an abomination and all I want is to be gone.

I just hope for the peace of non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, it's just so dreadful how a human can suffer for so long just to face the terrible extreme agony of old age, I'll always see existence as the problem, this existence should never be imposed.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Any time of the day that isn't night

 

[fluorescentpearl]

All the time when I'm not wif my puppy : (