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noname223
Archangel
- Aug 18, 2020
- 7,054
Lack of money is one of my main issues why I have to ctb. I am not made for poverty I worry so much about it, I cannot adapt to that. This would be extreme agony for me on top of my mental hell.
Welfare in Germany is higher than in the US as far as I know. I would have to live with roundabout 532 dollar (450 euros). However you get on top of that a living space.
I was raised in the middle class. I think for an halfway good life I would maybe need 800 dollar (677 euros) and a living room. I cannot imagine living with way less money what I probably have to. I never had to pay for all of my stuff that's why I am not good with those numbers.
Most of my hobbies can only be practised with money. I play video games, use my laptop a lot and I need my smartphone to chat with friends. I won't be able to meet my friends when I live in poverty because they live not close to me.
I hope I kill myself before I have to endure that. All my coping mechanisms depend on that. My therapist is like welfare is not that bad. I don't believe that. I have way more health issues on top of that. Living with all of these problems is just not what I want. My future will be so terrible. When the next severe crisis hits I hope I gonna end it. For me it would be a rational decision. I have thought so much about it. I conclude that even when I am not depressed. But professionals/prolifers would never acknowledge that.
Welfare in Germany is higher than in the US as far as I know. I would have to live with roundabout 532 dollar (450 euros). However you get on top of that a living space.
I was raised in the middle class. I think for an halfway good life I would maybe need 800 dollar (677 euros) and a living room. I cannot imagine living with way less money what I probably have to. I never had to pay for all of my stuff that's why I am not good with those numbers.
Most of my hobbies can only be practised with money. I play video games, use my laptop a lot and I need my smartphone to chat with friends. I won't be able to meet my friends when I live in poverty because they live not close to me.
I hope I kill myself before I have to endure that. All my coping mechanisms depend on that. My therapist is like welfare is not that bad. I don't believe that. I have way more health issues on top of that. Living with all of these problems is just not what I want. My future will be so terrible. When the next severe crisis hits I hope I gonna end it. For me it would be a rational decision. I have thought so much about it. I conclude that even when I am not depressed. But professionals/prolifers would never acknowledge that.