It looks like universe has completely no point other than to exist, but the fact that we are conscious makes thing weird... I mean there is no point for consciousness in mechanical world, so maybe we are just here to experience this universe. But again this is pretty shitty experience, I mean there is suffering and pleasure which are like built in to the experience and have meaning on their own, also thing is too real for it to be like a simulation and there is no way to escape It other than to ctb, which is sad.
Also the lack of point in this whole thing is annoying, there is no ultimate goal, god or achievement that would say: "You won, You are free now, you may rest from uncertainty and fear". For majority of people biggest goal seam like some weird mixture of sex and gathering resources and social status. Which are games made by life and hardwired in our brains, and when we don't or cannot do them we are getting depressed. There are other things that make you happy or maybe content, like beauty, but If by beauty we think of paintings of naked woman (or man) we are back to square one, with that in mind one could think that interesting point of life would be to try find real meaning of life, that is not conditioned by sex, social status, wealth or entire procreation-evolution-society game.
Having that kind of world view is hard as society judges it as something unhealthy as It is not supportive of the way things are done. "you think too much". That is why high IQ is a risk factor in suicide.
"There is but one truly serious philosophical problem and that is suicide. Judging whether life is or is not worth living amounts to answering the fundamental question of philosophy. All the rest — whether or not the world has three dimensions, whether the mind has nine or twelve categories — comes afterwards. These are games; one must first answer." - Albert Camus
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