What I leave behind

[not sure yet 42]

I'm on the edge. One of the things I can't shake is what happens to my family once I ctb. My dad survived Nam. He'll be fine. My mother is very fragile and I'm thinking of waiting till after she passes. Then there is my wife. She suffers from BPD and really bad PTSD. She would be crushed. I also have a 22 year old daughter that I recently came back into her life full time.

Do I have to just live this life I no longer want because of them?

I just don't know

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like only you can answer the question. Only you know what is best for yourself as it is your life after all. I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. It sounds like a difficult situation to be in, and I can imagine that it must be so painful and devastating. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, I hope that you find relief from your suffering.