What do you think, is your ctb emotional or rational decision?

[NoPointToContinue]

I guess majority of us would say rational considering all the details, but there is always some emotions involved. What part of your decision is emotional?

 

[NasiGoreng]

It must be the fact that I am acting on emotional pain, and I don't want to live with the pain of being myself and alive anymore.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Definitely both. Oh well

 

[FuneralCry]

My ctb is a rational decision as I will be doing it to escape a future filled with suffering. I know that things will get worse for me over time, so wanting to escape that is rational. I see wanting to die as a rational response to a life like mine.

For the most part, I do not feel much emotion, just emptiness. However in the past I have had moments of deep sadness and desperation and when I had that I was the closest to ctb. I feel like experiencing those emotions is the one thing that will make me overcome the SI.
But overall my ctb and my decision to die is very rational, it is the one thing that makes sense for me. I just want peace and freedom from this life.

 

[again_noidea]

It seems rational to me, but I know that the driving force behind my wish is emotional. I just can't find a rational story for hope.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Rationality is just emotions with more steps. I guess I'd call my own suicide rational.

 

[Zvov]

When the thoughts first started happening about 2 decades ago, I thought they were just emotional and dramatic thoughts and would usually lessen each day. But as more heartbreaks happened, more disappointments occurred, more let downs etc., I feel its becoming more and more rational. This last bout of spiraling depression feels like it is the most rational thing I can do to show I still have control of at least one thing in my life

 

[WaaaghEnjoyer]

It is a rational decision. Since no matter what we do during our short life, it will be forgotten one way or another, yet having to experience all the hardships that come with it, concluding that life should still be lived is the emotional answer. The rational answer is that there is no reason to live.

 

[mustard_glass]

I'd like to think it's a rational, well thought out decision. After nearly 30 years of struggling with my mental health, society's expectations, not being able to fit in or connect with people, the pointlessness of life and so on... I'm pretty much done. I'm dead inside at this point, very apathetic, the only emotions I feel are anger and anxiety.
This isn't some desperate struggle with crying, screaming, self-harm and so on, but more like "yep, it's time to go".

 

[m9q2As2$IG]

I'd argue every rational decision is driven by emotion somehow. What seems logical to you, may seem irrational or emotionally-driven to another while both of you could be considered sane. Emotions really dictate a lot, such as what we consider to be good or bad. If we all felt great after murdering another human, we might see it as a sacrifice to bring positivity into the world. But, because most people experience it as negative (understatement) it is considered wrong (especially morally). If everyone felt great about murder, it would only be logical to murder, no? How you feel about murder is dictated by emotions.

This is just how I interpret it anyway.

To answer your more simple question, for me, it is an emotional decision which I could rationally explain due to my emotions. A bit of both, you could say.

 

[doesntevenmatter]

Almost purely emotional. I'm sure there's some rationale behind it, but it's driven by emotions.

 

[diyCTB]

My ctb is a rational decision as I will be doing it to escape a future filled with suffering. I know that things will get worse for me over time, so wanting to escape that is rational. I see wanting to die as a rational response to a life like mine.

Same and it's why dignified death should be human right. Let's not let pro-lifers tell us otherwise and gaslight us into thinking we are crazy because they are unable to get their mind around this without walking in our shoes.

 

[Mr2005]

I don't think it's one or the other. I can't take the emotion out of what bothers me so it seems rational to end it

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Rational all the way. Totally rational decision to get rid of all the emotions

 

[Dear Agony]

Both

 

[one.way.out]

Both? I think if most people were in my situation they'd want to kill themselves as well.

 

[IWantToSleep]

Probably both.

 

[itsbigbraintime]

It's both for sure. The emotional aspect of it is more likely to actually make me go through with it, but I've given it plenty of thought. There's plenty of sound logic behind it.

 

[Sebuet]

Yea both.

 

[Fizz]

Rational decision, emotional SI blocking the way :/

 

[threadbythread]

Undeniably a combination. Emotional as I'm often afraid or in despair, and rational because my shitty mental health won't get any better and continues to be a burden on others. While guilt, shame, loneliness etc are definitely motivating factors, I also feel I have a moral obligation to ctb.

 

[Sra_TZ]

In my humble opinion, it's a rational decision. My decision is based on both physical and emotional pain. An impulsive suicide could be called an emotional decision while a well-thought out one is more on the rational side. Obsessing night after night over the topic has brought me to a very logical conclusion: there's no reason to live.

~S

 

[Versailles]

A combination of both, on the rational side is my mental illness and my disability, and on the emotional side there is my constant fear of failure and that my life is a waste.

 

[Stopthepain]

I am compeltly numb, my brain is pretty much fucked. And i am uncurable.. thinking about death every waking sek for 3 years. So pretty much rational and my only.option left

 

[Lmd]

Emotional. It's about how much I can take. My logic tells me that the rational thing would be to live for the simple fact of being able to do it.

 

[peacefulabyss89]

Extremely rational - no living being would want to live in my life circumstances. I fought to escape my circumstances with every fiber of my being, but there is no hope, so I am taking the only option available to me.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I'm not sure if emotion-rationality is actually a true dichotomy. There's a theory that rationality itself is inherently emotional in the brain. It's hard to separate them. For example, being poor (with no visible solution) is one reason I want to ctb. Is this emotional or rational? There are negative emotions associated with poverty, but there is also the cold calculation that I won't have the funds required to achieve certain goals (but that again has emotions attached).