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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
7,064
My main problem is the future. My prospects are horrible. The next painful period will be when i am working again. I cannot cope with the stress. What is soon happening to you that scares you? Or just means pain for you.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
Being an incel NEET at 24 instead of 23.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,873
To me the question in the title really sums it all up. Life for me has been defined mostly by suffering, and worrying about when the next episode of pain is gonna hit, like a slave fearing when they're going to receive their next lashing. And it really is a matter of when, not if. I think about:

  • Ageing (which is inevitable with our current woeful understanding)
  • Diseases (that at any time I could develop)
  • Being the victim of violence (someone could just decide to fuck with me, mug me, stab me, who knows)
  • Poverty and homelessness (really looking like my future. Makes the above point more likely)
These are only A FEW of the THOUSANDS (millions?) of very real concerns that I have to worry about and they each repulse me beyond words. It's truly a vile reality we inhabit, to contain these evils and more. Humiliating, degrading, undignified horrors that for me, can never be justified. NOBODY can tell me that life is just wonderful. It has pretty elements, but in the aggregate it's not pretty (from my perspective). There are too many bad apples in the orchard called life. How anyone happily tolerates these and other evils, is something I can't understand.
 
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SweetDreams500

SweetDreams500

Narcissistic gay NEETcel
Apr 4, 2021
234
My pc is getting old so it won't run new games

Gaming is the only thing I have available to me rn
 
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Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
My ever self destructive habits, being homeless again and end up alone with nothing but my painful memories of the past to lull me sleep
 
avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,356
Being without the one person I love more than anything in this world.
 
WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
I'm scared of getting older (nothing I can do about this), fatter, never loving or being loved again, going crazy for real, ending up as a homeless if I decide to become a NEET again, etc.
 
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StringPuppet

StringPuppet

Lost
Oct 5, 2020
579
I just know that whenever my mom dies it's gonna hurt but I don't wanna CTB before she dies because I know it will hurt her more
 
finalexit

finalexit

Member
Jan 24, 2021
84
Having to go back to work, losing more hair, diabetes destroying my body in many different ways, aging in general, mental health continuing to deteriorate, car breaking down, computer slowing down and eventually failing and keeping me from working on music and video projects that are my only way of coping with existence, having to say goodbye to my wife one day, somehow having less energy than I do now, potentially losing the few friendships I have, sinking deeper into debt, etc
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,682
Just more days of existing, dealing with chronic health problems and the same cycle of emotions. The only thing we are certain of happening is death. We don't know how bad things will get and there is no limit to that. Just simply the human body can torture us in many ways we are not prepared for. It is the inevitable in this existence.
 
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