What are your reasons for wanting to die?

[BaconCheeseburger]

• I've spent years feeling controlled by my family's standards
• Bullying got me really low and turned me a bully myself
• I have people who have hated me for years because I deliberately hurt others to boost my own self esteem (which obviously backfired)
• I have herpes, which isn't bad in itself, but the stigma makes me feel like dirt
• I can't cut myself to 'ease' my pain because I live with my judgemental family
• I'm not good at keeping romantic relationships because I get bored, and I think there's some psychological issue behind that or something
• I feel inferior and like (aside from my family's reactions) no-one would be too fussed if I CTB

 

[okaoki]

I have depression and social anxiety ,broke , jobless ,no friends, only people in my life
treats me badly ,cornering me ,pushing me away, too afraid of outside world , locking self,
even if i moved out ,what about rent,internet fees, etc life is too hard.

i hope just someone could guide me to a better live , even though i knows
its fairy tales.there nothing left.

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

I have destroyed my life and any real hope of a good future, I have lost most of my feelings that idk if I will get back. I have pretty much destroyed most of my friendships because ive stopped caring about a lot of things. I wanted to become a psychologist but that dream is over. I have BIpolar and BPD and cant even do therapy and im horrible staying on meds because I get self destructive and say fuck getting help or anything. Im basically just living to see how much misery I can take before I decide to put a bullet in my head.

 

[Purple]

I wanted to get out of my darkness, but it does not matter what I do, it chases me.It is so hard to be a fish on the dessert, and try not to breath because the sand will go to your lungs, but when you realice that the sand is almost covering you, you just refuse to let it continue.You can't let it happen.But you just want to die before it does.

 

[Phil8888]

I had every opportunity to make something of myself, but ruined it. I fucked up my life beyond repair. I don't have the motivation to make things better (not that I could get back on track and live a normal life, pretty sure that's impossible at this point). And I honestly don't trust myself to make the right decisions to improve my life. I realize death is the only way for me, I don't have a future and life isn't for me. Depression is also a component.

What are your reasons?

Crippling anxiety and agoraphobia. The fact that I can't find another person to love me for who i am and years of making everyone around me unhappy because of my illnesses