What are your plans?

[satanisyourmaster]

I realized my plans (to stay alive) for now are to see my friends, I have 6 online friends I wanna see, maybe 7. I maybe wanna travel and see the world a little bit, I don't think there's anything in it for me. But I wanna see my friends, and lose my virginity, too. I don't know why I'm typing this, I don't think I have anyone else to turn to without threats of cops being involved. My friends are mostly in Europe like me. It's a lot of saving up, but I wanna see them before I kick the bucket. I wish I could do it sooner, but there's so much I wanna do and experience, unfortunately

 

[Aflame5926]

that is great to be honest. only do it when you dont have anything left in you anymore.

so long you have things to do and enjoyment in certain things you dont have to leave. you can always CTB later. but for now enjoy the things that you can get enjoyment out of it. hopefully at the end of it you dont need to be here anymore and you found your place man

 

[satanisyourmaster]

that is great to be honest. only do it when you dont have anything left in you anymore.

so long you have things to do and enjoyment in certain things you dont have to leave. you can always CTB later. but for now enjoy the things that you can get enjoyment out of it. hopefully at the end of it you dont need to be here anymore and you found your place man

Thank you greatly, I wanna see the internet friends I made that made life passable. I'm focusing on saving up, maybe they'll have good memories of me too. At some point, they'll grow too old to visit me, so might as well make it count.

I trying to live as hard as I can. I know what I want in the end, I wasn't even a decade old but I knew what I wanted Sorry, feeling sentimental.

 

[Aflame5926]

no man i had that time aswell. i was like 13 when i went alone to a 18 year old to go to a game convention. i met with on ps2 online.
we ended up drifting apart but internet friends aint fake friends. they really can be good friends man.

but go with the flow. dont set up expectations if you do something for them that they do something back. its a recipe for disaster

 

[aroll]

I want to finish uni this summer and try to start a new life in a new city. I'm giving life one last try.

 

[satanisyourmaster]

I want to finish uni this summer and try to start a new life in a new city. I'm giving life one last try.

You got this! I hope uni works out for you, there's so much to experience. It may be challenging, but you will persevere, ok? Never feel lonely in telling you the fails or successes, genuinely wish you the best

no man i had that time aswell. i was like 13 when i went alone to a 18 year old to go to a game convention. i met with on ps2 online.
we ended up drifting apart but internet friends aint fake friends. they really can be good friends man.

but go with the flow. dont set up expectations if you do something for them that they do something back. its a recipe for disaster

I trust my irl friends, like, at this point idc if I live or die LOL. If they shank me in a foreign city, that's ultimately my problem. Very daring to go alone at 18, I hope your friends gave you plenty of insight and experience. I wish nothing but the best for you

 

[FuneralCry]

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just plan to peacefully cease existing and finally be free from this existence that I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake that just causes all of this futile suffering all for the sake of it, the peace of non-existence is all I want, I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence.

I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to exist, this existence of torturous suffering should just never be imposed at all, making painless death inaccessible is a terrible crime to me, it truly is so horrible how we exist in this prison world where humans are forced to suffer. To peacefully cease existing is the only plan I could ever wish for, only in non-existence will I finally be at peace from all future dreadful suffering.